BrokenHeartedPain• Show poetry

I'm really bad at spelling so If there is a spelling erorr just comment and leave me the right way to spell it. Thank you! When I first write a poem it's not that good so I have to go back and redo it, more then once. I stopped writing poetry at the end of 7th grade because everything I wrote was stupid....I had run dry. I just started writing again and I hope I can make good poems that help people understand. Understand that things they think are wrong are far from it. I like bondage. I'm into alot of kinky stuff. I think it has to do with all the vampire stuff I'm into.
I'm very opinionated. But I'm also an open-minded person. I always speak my mind no matter if someone gets hurt or not. I am a very caring person, but sometimes I remember the past and I just give up. I don't change for anyone...They should love me the way I am....pissed off or not. I think about killing myself alot....but I can't. And no matter how much I want it, it will never happen. I'm athiest. I do not and refuse to believe there is a god. I'm the kinda person who believes if theres no proof it never happend. This is why I don't believe most peoples lies. I have been lying all my life deffinatly to my self....this is why I can tell you when someone is lying. If I say they aren't lying but they really were it's because I wanted to believe...I made my self believe. Everyone has left me in the past so I try not to center my world around them but there is this person I met who I can't get out of my head. Quotes:
~Loose one friend, loose all friends, loose yourself.
-off a T.V. show...this is how I feel...sometimes when I want to give up the world.
~She called me names, Talked behind my back, Ditched me, Lied to me, Wanted to ruin me, but I still managed to call her my "best friend".
-to all the fake friends I've had in the past.
~So turn back on your words again and walk over them like you walk over me, you say you promise this time, but your actions disagree.
~Sometimes I wonder why I should go on but then I thinks of them.
-to everyone who has been there for me....not that many people....
~I hate the way you look at me when I tell you I still love you.
-me
~I might not always show it but know I truly care and no matter what....when you need me I'll be there.
-to everyone
~BEHIND MY SMILE IS A BROKEN HEART, BEHIND MY LAUGH I'M FALLING APART, LOOK CLOSELY AT ME, AND THEN YOU'LL SEE THE PERSON I AM, REALLY ISN'T ME.
-I love this one....It's my fav.
~And when you look into my eyes and promise me the world......I laugh right in your face.
-me
~Do you think it hurts much to die? It's hurting so much more just to stay alive.
-I know what it's like to die I just don't think anyone whould care if I died again.
~Don't piss me off, I'm running out of places to hide the bodies.
~I'd rather have you hate me for who I am than love me for who I'm not.
-This is why I don't change for anyone.
~I asked you if you liked me; You said 'no.' I asked you if I was pretty; you said, 'no.' I asked if I was in your heart; you said, 'no.' I asked you if you would cry if I walked away; you said, 'no.' So I walked away...You grabbed my arm and said, 'I don't like you, I love you. You're not pretty, you're beautiful. You're not in my heart, you are my heart. And I wouldn't cry if you left, I would die...I love you.
-I'd say that to my best friend...if I had one.
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Things I hate :
1. Liers
2. Fhosers (people who pretend to be something/someone they aren't b/c of something someone thinks)
3. Me
4. Life
5. High school
6. Drama
7. Children
8. Sloppy second bunnys (Friends who date/bunny/mess around with your boyfriend/ex.)
9. People who act like kids
10.When someone says the world revolves around someone else when they really think it revolves around them.
11.rap/hip hop music
12.backstabbers
13.Fake friends
14.When people insult & hate me but they don't know me.
15.Homophobic people (people who r scared of or hate gays.)
16.Racism
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~My Lil' Secrets:
*People think I've stopped lying...... but I've just gotten better at it!
*I love you all so much but I just can't tell you.
*I thought we were in love....
*I'm in love with my best friend.
*I want to go blind so I don't have to see them together.
*I hate feeling alone.
*I hate people who remind me of myself.
*I pretend to be mad b/c it turns me on to see you pissed off.
*I'm afraid I will do something I will later regret....if I'm still alive.
*I'm afraid that no one will ever love me again.
*I want to admit I love you....but I still lie to your face.
*I'm trying to pretend I don't care....Is it showing?
*I want to kill everyone I've ever loved so they can't hurt me again....shhh!
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