SchmexyBabii• Show poetry

The thing that drew me to writing was that i found it a way of expressing how i feel when i feel crappy or when i feel good... also my mind wanders like all the time and i just think things and like to get it all down on paper. I write poems, stories and attempt songs but im not the best in that catagory. The other thing i love about sites like this is reassurance that no one is alone in their feelings and that there is always someone who knows how you feel. I have known people for a week who know me better then people i have known my whole life just because alot of the time we feel the same and its an amazing reassurance.... this is me blabbing btw feel free to skip!!
I went through too much shit growing up too early. Im not saying i have it worse then anyone else cause i know it couldda been a fuckload worse for me and im grateful it wasnt cause there are others worse off, but for a kid its still alot to deal with. I had alot of family shit that i wont go into but the other biggest thing was in school i was the one teased and called fat/ugly/useless. I had the wrong friends who just also made it alot worse. I had a few m8s who i LOVED to pieces but the worse friends made it harder for me to be with the good ones. Since then my self image has nose dived. I had an eating disorder and was seriously depressed. Since then things have gotten better but not the best. I still have problems with my appearance and i HATE it when ppl say things to me about me that i dont agree with cause im kinda like "well am i the messed up one not seeing it and being down on me cause its not normal" but i think im gettin better. Still, if you managed to stay awake through all this rambling then cudos to you XD

i am who i am and those who dontlike it can just shove it cause i aint gonna change.

my other love in life is music
without my ipod i go through withdrawls and i just need my music with me at all times.
i hate the crap on the radio. they find a good song and play it to death, im glad they dont play my music tho cause if they did then it wouldnt be mine anymore ;P

apart from that i also need my m8s. anyone screws with my friends and they will get it from me. i am very protective of my friends and family even tho they do piss me off sometimes (love yas all)