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Right now:
If I am talking to you, and I sign off/log out, I am going to go do something stupid, or my dad is being an idiot.

Today was really BORING and LONG.
I am in pain,
a lot of pain.
And I am fed up.
And mad at myself.
Microsoft.
And la de da.

(Updated 9/5/08)



For The Record, once school starts, I will NOT be on as much, only when I can, all homework is done, family time is in. But I will be answering all messages that are sent to me, I will be continuing to talk to you guys, it really kind of just depends on the homework loads and how much my parents hate me.

Currently Dating: No one.

Currently Dreaming About: My late boyfriend and my at-one-time wedding day.

Currently Listening To: Never Ending Story - Within Temptation

Currently Watching: The second hand on the clock.

Currently Wanting: SLEEP AND CHOCOLATE AND MUFFINS AND BAGELS


Last:
Time you laughed?: 3 days ago
Time you cried?: Right now.
Movie you watched?: Um... Alice In Wonderland
Joke you told?: Hmm... been a while since I told a joke.
Song you've sang?: Never Ending Story
Time you've looked at the clock? Now.
Drink you've had?: Milk
Number you've dialed?: Austin
Book you've read?: Life Of Pi (sucks serious ASS)
Food you've eaten?: A half a muffin
Flavor of gum chewed?: I don't really chew gum much.
Shoes you've worn?: Socks
Store you've been in?: School Store
Thing you've said?: I love you, goodbye.
(Updated: 8/27/08, 6:20PM)


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You Didn't Ask Me, But For The Record...
-I have been sexually abused by a male
-I have been sexually abused by a female
-I have been raped
-I have miscarried a child
-I have been a self harmer
-I have see someone being born
-I have seen someone die
-I have seen someone close to me hurt
-I have hurt someone close to me
-I have been to a wedding
-I have been to a funeral
-I have made mistakes
-I have been bullied
-I have been beaten
-I have been ashamed
-I have been hurt
-I've kissed a male
-I've been cheated on by a guy
-I've been to court

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~ I could careless what anyone calls me, like slut, whore, etc. But if someone calls me a bitch, I panic. (that is what the man who sexually assaulted and whipped me said to me every few minutes)

~I have danced through our house in my underwear, and sung into a hairbrush.

~ My bedroom is called the "death hole" by my family, because I stay in there up to 24 hours without coming out once. They normally check to make sure I alive in there.

~ I keep every letter I have ever gotten in a box that lives on my bookshelf.

~ I hate buying clothes that everyone else is wearing. If I wear something and I see someone else wearing it, it pisses me off, and I have to change the outfit completely.

~ I hate rodents with an unnatural passion. I never want to see them, because their goal is to kill the human population.

~ I hold signs that say "Keep your coins, I want change" at the corner of Wal-Mart when my parents give me the okay.

~ I put on face paint if we are going shopping to scare the shit out of people. Normally it consists of fake blood.

~ I write grocery lists on my hand.

~ I also write lyrics to techno songs on my hand.

~ I have a goal to shave my head bald and donate my hair to Locks-Of-Love during the next school year.

~ I sing every time I take a shower, and normally I wake people up when I do so.

~ I hate bugs, but I will not kill them by squishing them, but I have no problem swallowing them whole.

~ I refuse to climb ladders, because I hate them and do not trust them. At all.

~ I never have eaten a ding-dong or a ho-ho.

~ I used to eat crayons, and paste... and play-doh.

~ I hate getting shots, but I have no problem at all getting blood drawn. I plan to give plasma when I get old enough.

~ I still buy coloring books when we are at the store, and I still color the people strange unhumanly colors.

~ I think cranberry juice is blood, and I love pretending I am a vampire when I drink it.

~ I have always wanted to go to Platform 9 an 3/4 in London.

~ I also have a dream of going to Hogwarts.

~ On the topic of Harry Potter, Voldy is gay (ask me why), Everyone knew Dumbledore was gay before it was announced, and Harry Potter and Malfoy should have had a gay make out session in the broom closet.

~ I think the Twilight movie is going to suck, and I don't want to see it.

~ I love when people give me weird looks, it means I am doing something individual.

~ I buy clothes at Goodwill and I am proud of it; I HATE people that spend 50 dollars on a pair of jeans.

~ Speaking of Goodwill, I love buying formal dresses there, because they are $12.50 and they are always really nice.

~ I hate Mary Poppins and I have only seen it once, but I know all the songs by heart.

~ I own a pair of rocketship underpants, like Calvin, and I wear them sometimes to feel like a 6 year old kid again.

~ I have a Barbie doll that I have never opened. Sadly, it still has it's head attached.

~ When the religious people come to our door and give me a free bible, I burn them or throw them at said religious people...

~ When telemarketers call our house, I pretend I am a answering machine.

~ I search for hours on the computer to find pictures, but never find what I am looking for.

~ I never have bought a piece of clothing that cost more that $50 in my life.

~ I love reading old magazines just to see what happened in 2004.

~ When I am upset, I drink coffee and read tabloids.

~ If I call my friends but I barely say anything, it is because I am really trying hard not to cry.

~ I have always lost the keys to my diaries, and I cut the locks off with the table saw if I really want to read what I wrote.

~ I love sleeping on air mattresses, because it is fun to jump on them.

~ I love the rain, because it always makes the air smell nice.

~ I have eaten cans of cat food before.

~ I love planning birthday parties, but I hate when people throw me parties.

~ I remember phone numbers forever, but not always who's number it is.

~ I believe you should never say 'I Love You' to someone you are dating unless it is a serious relationship, and it will be leading somewhere.

~ I hate when the cable goes out in the middle of a telly program I am taping.

~ I also hate when there is a NEWS update in the middle of a football game.

~ The new book in the Twilight saga, Breaking Dawn, is really funny, because HAHA, I thought what would happen would happen, and it did! For the record, I do not really like it... but whatever.
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Some Quotes I have picked up


"Theres only now, theres only here. Give into love or live in fear. No other path no other way. NO DAY BUT TODAY!"

"Being with children is like hanging out with miniature drunks."

"Always forgive your enemies: nothing annoys them so much."

"Don't make fun of nerds, odds are you will be working for one someday."

"A good friend will come and bail you out from jail. A true friend will be sitting next to you saying "Damn, we fucked up!""

"Ancient Egyptians slept on pillows made of stone. That's what actually caused many of their deaths...pillow fights!"

"Always smile. It makes people wonder what you're up to."

"Last night I lay in bed looking up at the stars and I thought to myself, 'Where in the hell is my ceiling?!'"

"Don't be afraid to try something new. An amateur built the Ark, professionals built the Titanic."

"Truth is stranger than fiction, because fiction has to make sense."

"Save the earth, the only planet with chocolate."

"The problem with life is theres no background music!"

"DON'T HIT KIDS! No seriously they have guns now."

"I didn't loose my mind, I sold it on E-bay!"

"Your friends will wipe your tears after a boy rejects you. My friends will go up to him and say "It's because you're gay, isn't it?"

"They say "Guns don't kill people, people kill people." Well I think the guns help. If you stood there and yelled BANG, I don't think you'd kill to many people."

"What's better... a lie that draws a smile or the truth that draws a tear?"

"When you were born, everyone around you was smiling and you were crying. Live your life so that when you die, you're smiling and everyone around you is crying."

"One day you'll come to me and ask me what's more important: You or my life. I'll say my life and you'll walk away never knowing that you're my life."

"Did you know that Welch's says their juice is 100% real juice! But one of their flavored juices is banana! How the hell do you get juice out of a banana?"

"Did you ever notice, when you are sitting at a red light, that when the person in front of you pulls up a couple of inches, you are compelled to move up too? Do we really think we are making progress toward our destination? 'Whew, I thought we would be late, but now that I am nine inches closer, I can stop for coffee and a danish!'"

"They say the good die young. So, I say the way to eternal life is to be a world class jerk. So go ahead, kick some puppies, yell at some little kids, and push old ladies into heavy traffic. It's like taking vitamins."

"Mothers of teenagers know why some animals eat their young."
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My AP Family

Younger Sister - The Broken Queen

Little Sister - beuatifully broken

Sister-In-Law : Angelofthenight

Older Sister: taintedsunshine

Mother/Advice Giver : XxX-Ivy-Love-XxX

Pet Caterpillar : Dirty and Broken

My Everything: XXxXBassMeisterxXxX

Ask if you want to join my AP family!

My Little Sister wrote me this poem,
I find it adorable...
Thanks sis!

"My Sister.
I barely know you, but i trust you with my life,
we tell eachother how to cope with a miserable life.
I'm called your little sister,
Painless, like the perfect wound that you can trust not to blister.
We may be miles apart,
But you're my sister so you'll always be in my forever changing heart.

luvs u sissy
"

Love you too Sis!

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There once was a bear and a rabbit that hated each other. One day they found a genie in a lamp who said he would grant them each 3 wishes.

The bear went first and he said,"I wish to be the only male bear in this forest." And he got his wish.

The rabbit said, "I want a motorcycle helmet." And he got his wish.

The bear went up and said, "I wish to be the only male bear in the U.S. and all the rest were female." And he got his wish.

The rabbit said, "I wish I had a motorcycle to go with that helmet." And he got his wish.

The bear said, "I wish I was the only male bear in the world, and all the rest were females." And he got his wish.

Then It was the rabbit's turn, and he said, "I wish that bear was gay."
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Someone wrote this for me,
and I find it amazingly sweet!
Thank you so much!

http://allpoetry.com/poem/4491561