Mummy tucks me into bed late at night
She is wondering why I am putting up such a fight
‘Mummy I don’t want to sleep, I’m scared’
But she never asked what I was scared of, she never dared
So mummy left the room, and I was alone in the dark once more
And then came the noise, I could hear the door
The shadow sneaked into my room just like every other time
Nobody knowing that he is committing this crime
I beg him to go away, but he never listens to me
He tells me I am special and this is the way it’s all meant to be
‘This time be a good little girl for daddy, or I will have to tie you up like last night’
And I know you don’t want that, so tonight let’s do it right!’
Daddy takes my clothes off, while tears stream down my face like rain
He makes himself go inside me, and I scream in pain
Daddy covers my mouth with his hand, so I can’t scream no more
I lay there wishing mummy would walk through the door
But mummy never comes and daddy keeps playing with me
And his face and evil smile are all that I can now see
I try to get him off, but I know nothing will work, so I pray in my head
‘Please Lord take me away, take me far far away, I’d rather be dead’
But not even the Lord will save me from daddy tonight
So once again I lose the fight
Daddy kisses my tummy one last time, and then gets out of my bed
He whispers in my ear and says ‘don’t forget what daddy said’!
Author notes
Option 5)Write about abuse and the effects [esp. child abuse as it is a subject close to the heart]
Written November 7th, 2005
A contest entry
- For The Abused.... Serious entries only by Whispering Winds.
650 points, ended January 1, 2007, 52 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - Child Abuse Awareness. by Lord Merlynn.
750 points, ended January 3, 2007, 24 entries
Honorable winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest - [x] Lots of options [x] Something for everyone! Read! by xDamagedx.
450 points, ended January 28, 37 entries
Gold trophy winner
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
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Comments
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Heartbreaking. If this is a lifewrite I am so sorry, and if it's not, you convinced me. WELL DONE, this is a poem to be proud of.
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heartbreaking
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Oh my...
heart breaking! I can see it all happening in my mind and I jsut want to kill the basterd thats doing this. I apologize for my language, but, child abuse is also close to my heart. ....I pray this has never happened to you and if it has, you have my deepest most sincerest sympathies and support.
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Wow
This is brilliant! It's so sad, and it shows a lot of real emotions that sexually abused children have to go through. I got that knoting feeling, and kept swalloing when I read this, because it is so touching and sad. But thats a good thing. Everything about it was great, and spreading awarness is what we need to do :-]
Thanks for entering my contest, and the best of luck
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awww hun this is so sad....and I can relate.....not about the father part but I too have been through molestation and rape....I know the damga it does. You wrote this so beautifully....and with such courage and strength keep writting and I applaud you for surviving
XTashaX -
You know, It's really hard to imagine how a parent can do such things to their own child. It's sick and very disturbing to know such things really do happen. Thank you for entering my contest...
Tammy
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Darling
It used to be
reading this killed me
then I figured out
only we survivors shout.
The dead don't write
of their non fights
so I'm reading you
because you survived too.
Smoosh
Janet -
I don't know, but I feel it
Thanks for having the courage to testify through your poetry. It was hard reading this, but I respect what you've written and feel that you're contributing for all of us a great caring gift.
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I can see why you won this conetst. This poem really stays with you, it is so dark, so sad, so revolting. I hope your friend is away from him now and taht this man is paying for this outrage.
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Its so powerful that it is hard to believe that you didn't go through this yourself. I hope that everything is okay with your friend. Trust me I know almost how that person feels, except that it was my mother not my father. remember that judging is on the 10 so be looking for the results!!
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excellent poem
Such a sad write, it is sad that this has happened to you. This poem was excellent the flow and message were great. Keep up the wonderful work and good luck in the contest
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Somebody posted that the guy "needs help and to be charged with the crime" - that is the liberal bollocks that explains why so much of this stuff goes on - He needs to be tied to the back of a car and driven through the streets of the town and then have his broken body hung in the town square and his bollocks shoved in his mouth, his penis sliced like a banana and then be stoned to death - publically and on tv.
lets not spend time and money pampering to some mental bullshit excuse for their behaviour that these people have and then pay to keep them in jail.
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deffinitley a sad and dark poem. A very good one and you show a lot of talent throughout the piece. I hope you don't live through this still or have. Its always heart breaking and difficult when someone whos supposed to love you betrays your trust and does these things. Sick people in this world, I just hope you aren't broken and lost. Every need to talk I'll listen, Im a victim of rape as well but not by a family member..
Abused
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Oh that is exactly the feeling in my poem! The experience is so painful it raises bile in my throat to think of all the children in fear of the night. I am aghast at how prevalent it is. Even from Grandfathers that daughters never told anyone about so the grandchildren suffer through a second generation of abuse. I'm one who waited to confront-but I did confront- and now warn all of the monster hidden in the form of a man. Your poem and mine could have been written by the same mind. So many more out there who don't know they are not the only ones. Oh how I hate it!! Robinrae.
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wow, i (vanessa) hate hearing stories like this but yet it happens all the time and some people have to live with it for the rest of their lives. i don't think this sort of thing should be allowed to happen to anyone and it shouldn't happen at all but it does and there's nothing that will ever stop it. the haunting memory remains even if they go to jail and if the guy gets the death penalty, what's the victim left to think. most people that have this occur to them actually walk out thinking it's their fault and if they go to jail....the victim sometimes blames themselves. well, it's not their fault. their father chose to do what he did to his own child. my father touched me once but never did he do anything else. i know what he did but i kept it all inside. it's a natural reaction to do. this is a great write. i hope this has not happened to you and if so...i am so sorry to hear that.
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exelent
this is an exelent,but very sad read,i am 51yrs old and still haunted in my mind by the man who was my abuser/father congratulations you wrote this well -
I know many of my friends got rape by their own 'father' how can a father do that. It just sicken me. I just don't understand. But that not the case. I love the emotion you put in this poem. Thank you for the entry.
Wish you the best
dreamer -
Wonderful
Well I can say I kind of relate, my father did the same thing, ecept he did it to my sister. It took me a while to understand, and now I hate him more than ever. No hild deserves to do that, there are no words I can say that can cover the scars or heal any wounds he opened. I am sure that you are very hurt, and that you might even be ashamed of yourself. But hun don't, don't do that to yourself. You shouldn't beat yourself up for something that wasn't your fault. All in all this was a wonderful poem and you did a great job. I hope you don't mind if I tell my sister about this one, she might like reading it!!! Best of luck in the contest.
Andrea -
that's really sad. and sick and twisted that someone would do that to a kid.
but all in all this was a good write, for the type of topic it was. 
thank you for entering my contest. good luck!
xoxox dyei -
this is dark, twisted, and very well written. i like the poem, but can only pray it is fictional. good luck in the contest.
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I'm sorry thst you had to go threw this. I no how it is tog o threw this trauma all to well. I am also a survivor of rape. It happened to me twice in my life. The pain never goes away, all you can do is take it one day at a time. This is a really touching piece.
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Kudos!!!
PlayfulAngel, My heart is breaking right now and tears are streaming down my face. A monster is what he is. A very sick man indeed. He not only needs help, he needs to be charged with the crime he commited. I am left with a sickening feeling here not only for what happened but also the fact that I think mommy knew and closed her eyes to it. That is one of the worst things about this. As if it's not bad enough to have your innocence stolen by your parent whom you are supposed to love unconditionally, but to know that the other parent turned a blind eye to it. I hope that if this is a true story that you had to endure that you will find peace. I know the emotional scars left behind will never totally go away, but the pain they cause can be lessened. God bless you and thank you for sharing this with all of us. I wish much peace and happiness for you. Love and blessings for you, today and always. A definite standing ovation as I applaud you for this work of gold.
Joyce
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Well written!
*sighs* The only thing I can say, after reading so many of these entries, is I think father's aren't as connected to their children because they didn't have to bear them. That's the only form of "justification" I can give to these psychotic perverts 
What gived them the right, and makes them feel they shouldn't care. And shame on the mothers who allow it, or don't take the time to notice it... a crying shame!
Best wishes to you in the contest dear!
Stacy
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Unfortunately, I heard these words. This poem is amongst the top 5 of Ms. Catz' contest.
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What a heartbreaking ordeal for any child to have to suffer. You wrote this with feeling and the emotions of a child, the feelings she's going through. If this is personal, I'm so sorry you've had to deal with such a terrible atrosity.
Thank you for entering the contest
Dee
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This broke my heart more than anything could. This is exactly what my sisters and I went through with their dad. It is horrible and it is so sickening that it happens so often. I hope you no longer have to go through this.
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thank you very much for your comment. it was much appricaited. i really hope that your friend finds the strength to get help. good luck with the contest.
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This is very sad. My friend's father rapes her. I don't understand what "father" can do this to his child. It is sick and wrong. I really like this entry. It shows that not only do adults and teenagers get raped. It shows that a child can have just as much pain as anyone else in the world. I am trying so hard not to cry. This is such a horrible thing to have to face in your lifetime. But Your poem is amazing.
Audrey Rose
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This is very sad.. Is it true? If it is... I am.. .so... so.. sorry.
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This made me cry...shit girl my heart goes out to you...my bestest friend in the whole wide world went through this too and it's terrible sickening...keep up the writing and let it flow free...much peace to you
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thank you for your comment, it was appriciated.
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Chillingly Perfect
Congratulations on your Gold trophy Your poem was certainly the most chillingly expressive piece I have ever read. Keep penning!!!
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Horrible and horrible.
Being a dad myself ... I am ashamed of 'Dad' community.
Best wishes,
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my goodness, this is horrible. it was almost impossible to read, but this was from a perspective of a child yet with an adult mind, and the truth of the matter is it happens. a lot. the sick and demented things that go on in this world are absoluetly horrible expecially to those who have no idea that they have forever lost their innocence and their purity, had no idea that some look at them as if they were brought into this world to act as a slave of that manner, great write and best of luck in the contest
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This made me cry, I can relate to this too, but it wasn't my daddy that did it to me. I didn't even know it was a crime, I just knew that he hurt me, he made me bleed and said he'd kill my mummy if I told. I spent many years asking "why?" but I know that I'll never know the reasons, it's a disease, one that paedophiles are born with, a chemical imbalance in the brain. I just know that it wasn't my fault, the same way as you're not to blame for this. Thanks for sharing this, it must've been very painful for you to write. Good luck in the contest. La x
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Exquisite
So terribly sad, I work a help line and have heard adult women tell me these things that still haunt them decades later. I really thought your poem was realistic and truly from the point of the child. Good luck in the contest
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Man "daddy" is sick...but I have heard stuff like this so often that it is remotely impossible to believe how often this happens...I do not understand what kind of pleasure these people get out of this unless it is a control issue which is the only thing I can think of...great write.
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