someone pinch me
someone scratch me
someone hurt me
i just want to cry
tears swell up but never flow
feelings gash deeper
deeper to the core
i just want to cry
and make it feel better
I've thought about drinking
I've thought about smoking
I've thought about jumping
I've thought about cutting
I've thought about running
but i've never been able to cry
Friends have left me
friends have blackened my heart
it used to be pure
as pure as gold
but now its covered in ash and a scalding scar
tears swell up but never flow
feelings gash deeper
deeper to the core
I just want to cry
and make it all feel better
Author notes
i was very depressed when i wrote this. i couldnt get myself to cry, i only got partial tears that wouldnt come out.
Written February 9th, 2006
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liz
again, i relate to this so much! i have a poem called "why can't i cry" that has about the same meaning as this. i feel you.
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I was like that before. When my grandma died, everyone was crying, but i couldnt. I just couldnt. I think part of it was just that i was afraid i'd never stop though. Not that i neccisarily couldnt. (Sorry i cant spell) Anyway, good poem, i liked it.

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