I'm sorry

Hate me
i don't care anymore
do what you want
it's not like before
we'll never be friends
how it was long ago
but i can't say i won't miss it
two whole years you know.

I'll miss going shopping
and deciding what to wear
normally buying something useless
that costs too little money to care.
I'll miss the way we used
to share what we thought
about enemies and teachers
with which we fought.

I'll miss our conversations
about food and the like
no matter how unhealthy
we could share our dislike.
But i never did realise
the things that went on
when i talked forever
not realising how long
i never did realise
how much those things hurt
how i pushed you to do things
not knowing to divert.

I was far too caught up
in problems of my own
to deal with other peoples
problems and moans.
I'm not saying i was right
but i shall retain something for myself
some piece that i wasn't completely at fault
that i couldn't help myself.
But all the same i appologise
for the horrible person that i am
i'm not expecting to be friends as we were
but being enemies i can not stand.






I'm sorry Rachael
Please forgive me
xXx