All I ever wanted was to be important
For someone to understand how I feel
I know that it it's impossible for you to get
Just why I do what I do
I�ll never see the beauty you see
I�ll never smile without holding back tears
I hate myself, I degrade myself, I starve myself
This is me, who I am, what I�m here for
I won�t ever be okay
I thought this was over
And being �better� ruined me
So I�m hoping you�ll love me like this
It�s impossible for me to just get over it
And leave my past behind
I like being sick, honestly I do
It�s now a choice, something I need
I just want to go back
To feel thin, and hungry
I liked the feeling of emptiness, and weakness
The paleness was my beauty, the pain my strength
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Don't lecture, please. I'm expressing myself, deal with it, It's back... so what.
Written April 9th, 2006
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i am not going to lecture you bout how your feeling. i am just going to let you know i am here for you always. i might not understand fully but i am not going to place judgement on you. i love you
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