puppy love in the hospital rooms and school buses

Crystal
i love you
marry me
you only live
across the street
and
about 7 houses down
or at least
your parents do
so next time you're visiting
look for the guy
walking down the street
hands in his pockets
eyes to the ground
sighing with the regularity
that chainsmokers cough

i think you're
a nurse now

i saw you
standing outside
last fall
on your phone
in what
i've seen
nurses
wearing
at hospitals

well,
i'm going
to break my legs
suffer a concussion
snap my arms
at the elbow
dislocate a few
fingers
tear out
some toe nails
until i get you
until i see you
walking through the door

you won't remember me
i've changed
i was 14 the
first time i saw you
and the first time you saw me
well
hasn't happened yet

a friend of mine
who was a friend of yours
i used to tell her
how beautiful you i thought you were
you still are

i'm going to
punch brick walls
until my knuckles
look like plumbs
pop my kneecaps
out of place
i'll hold an audition
in hopes
of finding a girl
psychotic enough
to want to cut off
my feet
and you can be the one
to come in and
see how i'm doing

we could get married
and you'll tell me
how your day was
what happened
who died
who recovered
how much you missed me
and we'll just lay in bed
falling asleep
in each other's arms
until your beeper goes off
and you have to rush off
to work

you're always rushing off.