There are no words for what I am feeling
I can't describe the hate, the darkness inside
For once it is not about being alone
It is about how whatever I do, backfires on me
Everything fine and then suddenly, it goes wrong
Just one little thing to screw up everything
And I always blame me.. It is me
Who am I kidding? It always will be me..
I can't make people happy, I only make them sad
I try not to but eventually they will cry
Or I will.. Either way one of us will be upset
And wanting to die.. As always
No more peace inside. Forever, eternally damned
But is that so wrong? Is that so bad?
Why is damnation such a heavy subject, I'd love it
Atleast I'd have a place somewhere..
But here I don't belong, and I never will
Eyes watching me.. Hating me, Wanting me to leave
Well you will have your wish, I will go
But know, you ruined my life
But I don't blame you
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Written April 29th, 2006
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Hmm this is interesting. I liked it a lot, yes damnation sounds good to me. Well done, keep writing.
-Pyro -
a poem that full of raw emotions and expressions this is poetry to me love this write and you need not blame yourself this is one of the things we do all to often...
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This is a brilliant poem Em... It says so much and it's filled with such emotion... I tried to pick a part that I liked the most but I couldn't find just one because I can relate to the whole lot! You've done a great job at expressing yourself with this... Hope you're doing okay enough...
Love Ash
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GOOD JOB!!!!! :F
Life with it's ups and downs sometimes creates situations that make us vulnerable to anything and everything..... You have depicted a picture of that sort in you piece..... It is profound, somewhat sad and at the same time guilt ridden..... Get out of your shell and smile, do not let the complexities of live disturb, your every day.....
Live you life to it's fullest and you will see how things get better.....
Get better, good luck.....
Be blessed in light and love.....
As always, AngelicMistress -
these feelings are so sad and yet life always holds a light for us all and sometimes it might be so dim it's barely there but it is, just belive in yourself and know your worth something as long as a heart beats within you, this is so full of pain and tears fall but don't waste them life is so short
abigail
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Most think they are never good enough, pretty enough, wary enough etc. until others tell them otherwise. Everything can't be your fault, so you need to look around at others involved in various incidents and acitivities and see how they too can shoulder some of the blame. Do not think you are out to get pity, but you need to share some of the blame and start taking stock of your good points as well. Poem filled with self loathing, which is really sad. You belong wherever you think you belong, and don't let others tell you otherwise. Think you need a crash coure in self confidence. Poem well written - sentiments well exopressed - easy to read and understand.
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oh..come on my dear sister, you started it again?
My dear I was just a little busy in the last few days and couldn't send you comments and now what I see here?
My dear you're not that bad.
Come on...that's the life. You can't always satisfy all and that's the truth of life. It's true about all of us. We're not perfect my sweet sister.
Try to be more positive and then everyone will come to love you more than now.
Of course no one can love you more than me.
Shahrzad
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I don't want to push my opinions on you so you will just have to settle with a hug!!!
Meelz -
I have so many things to say about this poem but i dont know where to start. ok. firstly this is awesome i love it. secondly you do belong here!!! and no body hates you!! i really dont know what else to say...but great work all the same!
luv Nat
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Powerfull and worth thinking about
Powerfully written but there is an underlying strength that indicates that you are merely playing a game and taunting others for you are really under control anyway and can leave whenever you wish. Flitting into the dark to catch the unwary can be dangerous though. !! Don't understimate the dark side. Gong through a purple patch like the present can be depressing but there are normally as many good times, but they dont seem to be remembered as much as the bad times. -
dont blame yourself em! i cant explain it but i'll try haha. not here though cos everyone will read it and i'll sound stupid haha. good work though. xoxo
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wow so much in this but you did great but dont blame yourself for everything because it cant all be your fault in time things will get better you just gotta work at it and not let people bring you down..i hope everything works out for you
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