All these times

All these lies you tell me,
I keep my feelings inside.
The pain is deep.
You keep this all hidden from me.
It kills me when you lie to me.
All these times you hurt me.
I remember when I lay down.
All the screams and slaps are alive again.
I feel your hand gripping my wrist.
It kills me when I remeber
All these scars and new cuts live on.
I remember you and i start slicing my arms.
Craving my pain out.
Trying to forget everything.
All the blood and god is good.
And I remember how I felt like dying.
Just getting a hint of your cologne
Makes me think.
Think of your lovely smile.
How I would run my fingers through your hair.
The holding hands.
The kisses on my forehead.
I smell A.D.I.D.A.S. Moves
And I cry.
All these times you are around.