Her head on my shoulders, her long dark hair
The fragrance of lavendar, the shine of crystal.
Watching all those mushy soaps on tv,
Not because she watched the games with me,
I loved her, no less than she loved me.
Then came the devil, like a storm,
It stole her away, to a world unknown,
Tearing apart those bonds we forged,
In love we were all these years.
I threw her a life saver, a Golden Thread,
But she refused, 'Too late now' she said.
I'm Speed, announced the devil.
She was soon dead. Lost, hurt and bleeding
I desperately tried finding the unknown world,
In timeless moments, dangerously lost,
No more the husband nor the father I was.
A slave but, my master...Speed.
My daughter, she went to school,
Little though she was, she cared, fixing lunch
For me, herself and our dog, Ruff.
In those fleeting moments of sanity,
I realized I had to give up, on drugs.
For I still had a family, small though.
The Golden Thread, thrown to me,
By friends, neighbours and relatives.
But to choose between Yes and No,
I was no Master, I was the Slave.
In those rabid moments of insanity,
A knife I slit through Ruff's throat.
No reason.
My daughter was back home, fixing
Dinner for me, herself and....Ruff.
She never went backyard, or so I thought.
The sudden, ear splitting screams said otherwise.
Draggin myself to her, every muscle hurt, but
The look in her eyes, her pain was greater.
I realized.
I lied to her, knowing she wouldn't believe me,
I walked her to bed, pulling the covers on her,
I knew she was scared, like never in her life.
A father I had failed to be, Desperate,
Angry, Depressed, Violent and full of shit.
I wanted comfort, my Master showed me,
A dosage more than the usual,
And Paradise. Darkness.
And a Golden thread, fast disappearing.
Woke up, everything was too bright.
I was still flying.
I could see my home,no....house.
My daughter bending over somebody on the couch.
Resembling somebody I knew. Who was it?
Why can't my daughter hear me?
Why isn't the stranger moving?
I yelled again.. 'Samantha!'
My daughter turned around, unsure,
Shrugged and walked to the kitchen.
The guy on the couch, was me.
I was dead, No more a true father,
Samantha was all alone now, naive
Innocent and frail she was,
Not knowing what to do she went about fixing,
Breakfast for herself.....me....Ruff.
Author notes
Drugs can destroy. Not everyone can avoid falling for them. Not everyone can make the choice. Not everyone has the strength to take the Golden Thread. You can.Its not too late. Get a life. You're the best.
To those of you unacquainted with Speed:
Speed also known as Crystal Meth is a very addictive drug which results in depression. It has also been reported that use of the drug induces the person to commit acts of violence. Worst of all is that this drug can be prepared anywhere, in your kitchen, your bathrrom..... anywhere practically. Indian youth are being trapped by this drug at a frenzied pace.
Written May 26th, 2006
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Kimberely....Thanks for the comment... I'm gonna lose all my humility if I'm gonna get any more comments like yours! Thanks a lot.. Was damn encouraging! Thanks again
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Wow, what an intense poem and message. You have done a great job with this, showing how horrible this drug is and how it takes over a person, where they are no longer themselves but a slave to the drug and all of the evilness. Incredible insight. - Kimberly G.
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Meth and Speed are the same.. And you are on the right path.. A lil bit of anything won't hurt and keeping the quanity in check ensures that you have fun all the way! Thanks a ton for your comment!
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I really liked this write. I thought speed and crystal meth were two seperate drugs? Could be wrong though, because I don't know too much about the harder stuff. I admit to smoking the occaisional joint, but that's as far as I go. That's actually my limit too. I would really get on my friends if they were ever into anything harder. I'm even a littlt skeptical about alcohol, because I'm a recovered alcoholic, and though I do indulge in a few drinks on special occaisions, (mainly wine, champagne, or wine coolers though, no hard liqour) I don't like getting drunk anymore. Thank you so much for your comments too! I'll be reading some more of your poetry.
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To Sue! For the luck!
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Sue..Whoa! I don't feel any of my work is complete unless its concluded with a comment from you! Thanks a ton! And ya evidence enuf! hehe! Thanks again! You're the best!
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and one more for luck! heheh~!
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damn ma boi... im speechless.... its... awesome!... you weave a story into almost every write in such a way that you don't know where the poem, the story and reality begings...
Again every word is truth and thats what i admire the most in all your writes...
The ending was brilliant...! so sad and it packs such a punch!
What can i say man... i bow down to your awesomeness..!
♥ Sue! (muhahahah!)
ps: your writing is so realistic, the above comment is evidence enough!
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gullionmar... first of all.. not one bit of this poem is real..none of it happened to me.. Thanks to God..And everything that you've told me... I'm really sorry for it all.. I cannot tell you how much I respect you for the courageous woman you have been..i was very disturbed jus after reading all the things your ex did to your son.. I cannot imagine how it must've been for you.. You are really brave.. And yes like you've said.. God is awesome.. Wish everybody would understand that.. And thanks for praying for me.. And I've already sworn that I shall not set my desire upon any kinda drug.. Thank you again.. You're the best..
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Blazing White Wolf... thanks a ton for the comment! Would love to read your work Devil's Dandruff... Actually.. went to your page...saw your collection.. and then I realized .. 700+ poems.. and i was trying to find one poem.. Not easy! Guess someday i'll find the poem.. And then maybe I'll even write something on it 'The Quest for the Devil's Dandruff!' ..... By the way ... Faithie is really cute... And why do you have this fascination for wolves? Thanks again for the comment..
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oh my this is a wonderul write. but i pray that this was just a write,not the real thing in your life. but if it is real ,im sorry for your loss. do you know jeus ,i'm not gonna preach but let me tell you ,godstill performs miracles today.my life had been messed up iwas into drinking kinda heavey for me ,i'm not a real drinker, but anyway i messed up big ,got myself into some trouble, and it was hard, i made the decision to mess with a married man. got preg, had to have an abortion, something i didn't approve of. but i asked god for a miracle in my life and god gave me my son. he is such an awsome god. he forgives so must we. god gave me everything i wanted, turns out that , that wasn'nt what i wanted, so i got a divorce , the love of my life was hooked on crack. my baby boy was less than 2 yrs old. my x watched him while i was at work. one day i came home and i saw what he had done to our son. he took and open hand and hit him in his privte parts. now tell me that was right,but anyway.i got him out of my life to protect my son from him. i prayed and god took my x's desire for drugs away and gave him a new lease on life. i didn't let him see my son for almost 8 years n when i did ,it was only with me or his ,sissy around. butb god has given me an awsome little man,he loves god very much. but your right ,so very right drugs and drinking destroy so many lives.
i pray that god will continue ,to kepp his healing hand in your life an keep you safe from all drugs and that he mend what drugs destroyed in your life ,very best wishes to you ,god bless you great wrting again ,i loved it -
this is a nice write that is both powerful and full of truth I have a write about meth/coke I call it the Devil's Dandruff appropiate if I do say so myself well done on this one and good luck in the contest
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I wanna go back.....Speed users do have control? If you say so... You've been through it all.. I haven't .. So you must be knowing better.. Thanks for the comment.. And wish you'd quit soon girla.. And thanks again!
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Galyn! That has to be the best comment i've ever recieved! Thank you sooo much! Think you're already on my Favourites List.. Neway I'm off to check .. Thanks agian for the comment... You're the best!
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i like the meter, it very vividly portrays your message... yes, drugs are bad... but oft times the do have control...
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wHAT A UNIQUE AND AWESOME WORK OF ART!i THOROUGHLY ENJOYED THIS POEM AND AM PUTTING YOU ON MY FAVEORITE'S LIST.YOU ARE VERY TALENTED.
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