The dark side in me had vanished
I buried it deep within me
But now I can feel it coming out
It wants to make itself known
I try to push it back down
Bury my feelings, hide the truth
But nothing ever works
Eventually it will return
As much as I don't want it to
I don't want my life to be a lie
I know I will ruin relationships
But I guess its who I am
I am nothing
Nobody important anyway
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My life went from great to bad, from bad to good, from good to bad. What comes next?
And I know that I can't compare my life to others, so don't tell me I am trying to make you feel pity upon me cos I'm not.
See what I mean about fucking things up?!
Written August 15th, 2006
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i ruin my relationships too. for a while i was so budy pretending i was happy that eventually i didnt know when i was faking it and when it was real anymore...but great write
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great write...but as i can see, you know that lol .
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Well written Em and I hope for your sake this is just a passing thing. Personal experience tells me you may a have a little furthar to go but it will eventually make you a stronger person *woah! Cliche*
Anyway
Hope everything brightens up again some time soon
-Michaela -
Sad to hear this mate. Me hopes you find a feeling your comfortable with and can feel content with being 'you'. "without feelings we are not human" said a sage and I believe that. Let it out Em - I will always listen *hugs*
To the best gangsta,
Joey -
Even though every one is different, everyone goes through good and bad patches, so you are not alone. Though I must say that in the end, if you add all the good and bad patches, the good ones normally outweigh the bad! I know I sound weird or something but you have to take my word for it! It was great by the way Em! By the way, you are going to be great in the Production!
Xoxo -
I don't know what to say. I feel bad because when I wrote that poem about the poets on allpoetry, I didn't mean most of my friends. There are some who are self-pitying but I don't believe you are, or that you're trying to get people to pity you. I hope you're alright.
And remember even though we're not close friends I'll always be glad to listen if you need to talk
-Mon -
The worst thing about the western world, the 21st century and our culture is the fact that depression actually exists. I met a man from East Timor who had watched his family die and yet he was happy and felt no hatred towards those who commited the crime. It's amazing how different cultures collide. I myself cannot talk, as you might know I am not exactly the happiest person alive, I am looking at the irony. and indeed its ironic.
Confusicus -
Your poem is really good. But I have had the same problem with life because it is bad right know and I have had a point where it was really bad but it will get better. Life is like a high way it is rough at some points but it has alot of good points.
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Its a very nicely writen piece. I'd like to say that everyone is important.. but thats slightly not true. Everyone is important to some1 though.. apparently you're important to your friend selene
. *hugs* Take care, keep writing. Peace.
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....its a great poem, well written, blah blah blah..you know its good. but now you have me thinking! and i'm wondering if your ok! (dumb thought ay?) well, ima going to talk to you...and you can't stop me xD
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