Silly Love Poems

I don’t want to write poems
About love or what I think it is
Even though I know it’s not from me
It stems from a part of you

I don’t want that

I know I do not love you
How could I?
But I know these feelings you are making me feel
These feelings make me write like I do

I don’t want that

I take what you give to me,
I twist and turn it,
Somewhere in my mind
And turn it into these love poems

I don’t want that.

These poems I should not be writing
I should be writing horror
Melancholy,
Dark feelings that linger inside

You have taken that away from me

I want it back

I like writing about dark things
Of feelings I know will last,
But these things you make me write now,
They will be gone,
They wont last forever.

Please just let me write about all the bad things,
Of little girls loosing their innocence,
Of rose thorns and dark nights,
All these sappy love poems are driving me insane

I just want to get my feelings out there
I want them to be seen
I need to disembody them
Get then away from me

Listen to this,
What am I saying?
If I am writing about love,
Then what feelings am I trying to get rid of?

Why would I want to stop this?
These feelings are great,
They top anything that has come before
And make me feel like I can fly.

I will stop writing about love now,
I will continue on with my horror,
Because the more I push that out of me
The more room I have for the feelings you make me feel.

And yes, I do want that.