Secretly I shed my tears
Hidden deep inside
Remembering the place
Where I often use to hide
It was my own
Right beside my daddy
Now I’m in pain
Life has thrown every stone at me
I’ve been cheated
I’ve been ripped to pieces
By none other than
The ones who are suppose to be close to me
I was left out cold
A frozen body mass
Stolen all my feelings and emotions
Leaving me with bleeding veins
Breathless all alone
All the teachings I learnt
No one else but only I kept
No wonder no one understands
My thought process
To be a pillar, for I’ve had strong foundation
The building stands
Ready to fall down
Daddy I know you are always encouraging
In reality you are the only one who understands me
Never did let me fall, created a firewall around
That no one dared to cross
My safe place, in your arms
My head on your shoulders
While you wiped my tears
Made me laugh with your jokes
Until I forgot what was I crying about
Could this all be a reality’s dream?
Now it seems when I’m all alone
Far away from my home
Where my heart is where you are waiting for me
For life played a joke on me
Nothing like the ones you told me
It made me cry but in pain
My ex-husband and his family
Made a fool of me, made me trust and broke it
Took my money and tried to get rid of me
Now going through divorce, no one to console
The brother who gave me away, has too left me alone
Mummy, masiji and mamaji, now just them
Are on my side at least in the courts and police station
Fighting my battles head on with me
Friends once I had, can’t be found
The ones I did, they want me in their bed
Every man I’ve come across, he has been a bastard
Trying hard to lay me down
For I’m now blamed of not being able to keep my man
I’m a girl you never had let me feel
I was no different than my brothers
So you made me believe
The values of trust
Never to hurt others
Put your family and friends first
Never fall behind your education
Gain all the knowledge to share
I did learn it all, but was it all in vain?
I’m confused, I’m hurting
I need you more than any thing
Your kiss on my forehead
Jokes you cracked
The sound of your wisdom
The magical hugs
The long and short walks conducting discussions
The encouragement at every step
I can do it, all I need is a right mind set, so you said
The perfect timing
The perfect moments
When we were always together
You made me feel important
You helped me be a survivor
Taught me to choose and win my battles
Let me made my share of mistakes
Hiding behind to catch me if I fell
I was me, you always let me grow and live as me, to be me
I knew I could always count on you for every little thing
Daddy I’m your daughter
Waiting for you to come get me as you promised
Though, I know my wait is a little longer
But still I’m very eager
For you to fulfill your promise
Like always you did, as long as I remember
I need you daddy
And all the love you have for me
Now even more so when I feel I’m all alone
In this crowded world
Not sure of anything anymore
The fine line between the good and the bad
Is now a big blur
Leaving me perplexed with relentless pain
For I don’t know if I can go any further
Without you beside me
I know you are always with me
In heart and mind
I don’t need to remember you
For I never forgot you
The memories of our past
Are alive in present
Only thing now missing
Is my daddy, you to hold my hand
And, take to the wonderland
To live with you, for eternity with you
Everyone tells me you are no more
How do I believe when I know for sure
You have never lied to your daughter
You promised you will come to get me
And we will always stay together
Everyone tells me I’m in denial
I should change my language
I need to know this
You have now gone for ever
I’ve to replace is with was
Every time I talk about you and me
Daddy this is not all
Nothing seems to fall into its place
Found new love
But that too comes with lot of rejections
From everyone, advising me to run as far and fast as I can
But how can I forget your teachings
To be logical and never to jump to quick conclusions
We should accept everyone as a package deal
The way they are not the way we want them to be
Sure he has his shortfalls, but neither am I perfect
Then why can’t I make everyone understand this fact
Everything is a ball of confusion
I can’t handle, feel as if entire life’s going down the drain
I need to hear only from you, everything will be just fine
For only you have the power to make me believe in
My dreams and my aspirations
And, until that doesn’t happen
Daddy, do not worry, I listen to nobody
For they don’t know what we have
They are clueless of our feelings
Because they never did understand
Our strongest unbreakable bond we had and will always have
Author notes
The best thing ever happens is to have daddy like mine, but for that you will have to be me because he is finely unique, one and only one of a kind that God created just for me.
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OMG! It's so deep and moving. I almost cried. This was such a great poem! I honestly loved it. By the way what's mamiji and masiji? Well all in all I loved it take care!
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Very Nice
Such wonderful verse, showing the true love of a daughter for her dad, the loyalty and commitment you have for him just drips off this page, he is lucky to have you and you him -
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I am Truly Blessed
I agree with you I am still blessed because he still is with me and will always be...Just waiting for him to come & get me so we can be together for eternity
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That is reallt good, kinda inspiring...feels like i can realate, also the poem is really well written
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Thanks Spirit
Thanks a lot for your comment and I'm really happy you enjoyed reading it. This was one subject I'd avoiding to write about, but now is the time, I really needed to write and read it out loud. I miss him but I know he will come get me, when its my time. Thanks again for your time.
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true
Having a Daddy is a great thing. There is just something about a Daddy that makes him diffrent than a Dad, and something about a Dad that makes him diffrent than a Father. I think it would be a better and happier world if evryone had a Daddy in their life. I have a Daddy, and he is as wonderful as the one in this poem. I consider myself very lucky to have a Daddy, and not just a Dad. This was a good poem. Very ture.
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Thank You Fairy
Yes it's true, we are the lucky ones its a great thing to have daddy. I totally agree with you this place would be far better if everyone had a daddy in their lives. Thank you for reading my poem and I'm happy the way you feel and you enjoyed reading it.
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Sometimes you just need to find the strength that your father left with you. You'll obviously have to stand on your own two feet and become strong, and I know it's possible. You're a woman; stand and roar and watch everyone run! Don't just sit there and take crap from an ex husband and his family! I didn't! I fought back and still lost everything, but I walked away with my life and my pride.
The one thing I would tell you is to forgive him and to forgive yourself. Whatever feelings you have about what you might have done wrong, forgive yourself. Anything he did to you, forgive him. If you don't you'll allow it to fester inside you until it destroys you. I was divorced twelve years ago. You can look at my picture on my page. Tell me how old I look. I saw a picture of my ex on my daughter's My Space page. He looks so OLD!!! He has allowed his hatred of me to continue all these years, and it's eating him alive. Believe me, it will do you well not to sit and allow it to fester. I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers. Good luck! Hugs, Patricia
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Thanks a million!
Thank you soooooooo veeeeeery much for reading, understanding and encouraging me. You are right about life, I'm a woman, the strongest being. I have forgiven him an dhis family, its hard for me to forgive myself and the worst is I don't know for what. But today is another day and better one and it will get better everyday, this is all I know and need to remember. I cannot thank you enough for taking so much time off of your precious life to write such thoughful comment and encouraging words, it really means a lot to me. Once again I appreciate your thoughtfull expressions...Minoo
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i liked this poem and the message you send to the ones who have hurt you in the past. you get you consolation from your father and i did also. i am sorry you feel the way you do but i hope writing this has helped you. good luck.
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Thanks a million
I really do appreciate your time and encouraging comment. For the longest time I fought within to avoid writing these emotions, but today i'm at the edge where i need to have him with me and this is all I could do for now. You might think how stupid, I've already edited within past hour, several times and can't stop reading it myself. I'm a lifeless skeleton without him. Once again thanks for reading my blah! blah! blah!
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This has deep emotion in it and the verses just flow from one to the next with effortless grace. It is so well written and visual. I commend your talent and look forward to seeing more.
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Thank you so much
Thank you so much for enjoying this poem, this is one topic I was ignoring to write and today it just flowed for I'm really lost without him. I can't type any more for I can't stop crying. Thanks again
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