so lets take this blade
drag it across my skin
as the flesh opens
and blood drips down my wrist
secrets drip out
that i can never repeat
so lets hide these tears
from everyone around
i dont want to be asked whats wrong
i just want to leave this place behind
sometimes i hate the ones
that made me into this person
other times i thank them
for introducing me to my other half
so lets push these fingers
down a sore throat
because what goes down must come up
one way or another
so lets fucking forget me
because im nothing
not even worth a thought from you
fuckfuckfuck it =]
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Good Write.
You havent written any new poems lately and I hope you do very soon! I love reading all of your write. Your words are always so strong, emotional and personal. I can really relate to everything that you are saying and feeling in this poem. You are a great author and very talented. Don't doubt yourself or your talent and keep writting. It can be one of the best ways to release feeling, emotion and pain. I hope everything okay with you. If you need anything let me know Im alwasys here for you hun.
Love ya, keep writting and hope to read a new poem of yours soon . 
~Chrissy~
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save me?
I like this...sadly..I know this all to well.
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save you?
im sorry you know it well..
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"i dont want to be asked whats wrong
i just want to leave this place behind"
Even though I'm starting to recover, I still feel these lines. I loathe the people who say things usch as "all cutters just want attention" because it's not true. In fact, the majority actually cover the scars and hide them. I hate when people see a glance of them and try to "social work me" or council me. I don't need that, they're just harrassing me.
The start of this, the opening, "so lets take this blade" that's really forward. It's great, I really love it, you're not riding around the edges, you're getting straight to the point.
I want you to know that I've been through this, I've seen the reality of depression, self hating, self harming, suicidal behaviour, suicide attempts, all of it. I'm not some stranger trying to say you need to stop. I'm not saying you should keep it going, and if you'd like to, you can IM me for more on the cutting, but that's up to you. I just want you to know that I'm young, I'm getting through it, sure it's taken a few years, but it's worth it you know? When you're in the depths of it all it really does seem like there's no way out and so you should just give up, but when you can get your head cleared a bit you realise that there is actually hope, you were just not seeing it.
I'm not going to council you, mainly because I'm still going through it, but I can give you some pointers and if you want a friend who actually KNOWS the reality of it all, then I'm here.
This is a great piece, and I truly hope you don't give up writting.
Jai.
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im glad you are starting to recover from this cycle. but im sorry that yet another person has had to result to self harming etc.
thank you for your support and lovely comment, i appreciate it
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i know how you feel... i do all of this to, over and over, and im always thiking this too. this poem is simple but effective and sad. and i think it's clever how you used "lets" like your involving other people, like your making them feel guilty or to blame for how you feel... and like you want attention but can't tell anyone...
mayb i read into it too much.
it's a good poem, not one of your best though that i've read but the "fuckfuckfuck it" suggests you just wanted to get it out!
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thanks con.. nah you didnt read too much into it. you got it right x
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