maybe in december

it's winter now and it's cold out so
I hope you can see this cigarette glow
6 miles away from your bedroom window
and know
i'm numbing myself to insecurity
cause that sums up my feelings for you

i'm the lullaby that puts you to sleep
when you're not thinking of her, you're thinking of me
the sky looks so pretty tonight and I look
like I haven't had a coherent thought in weeks

I don't even know what this song is about
cause it was never about you
these recycled cliches don't really do much
to keep me warm at night but they'll do
tonight I think I wanna drink so much
I forget who I am
cause i'm only alive so that you're not alone
but you're not alone

i'm the lullaby that puts you to sleep
when you're not thinking of her, you're thinking of me
the sky looks so pretty tonight and I look
like I haven't had a coherent thought in weeks

tonight I think I wanna drink so much
I forget who I am
cause i'm only alive so that you're not alone
but you're not alone
maybe in december things will get better
when i'm flicking ashes on my back porch at midnight
and wishing it would snow-
take a piece of this to bed with you tonight, babe, if you can sleep:
you can try your hardest but you'll never get a single
tear out of me

cause i'm just the bad decision that keeps you from sleep
and when you're not thinking of her you're regretting me-
kid, the sky's so much softer than the way I look when i've
been trying not to think of you for weeks