I saw him again today, or yesterday;
skin smooth, perfect, a smile so bright,
enough to make my sweat and sway,
making me feel that I am finally right.
Why does he change me like this?
twisting and turning my insecure soul,
and yet saving me from the abyss?
could this…man, ever make me whole?
What am I writing? The words flow,
and my heart races, my chest aches;
why am I gay, does anyone know?
Is this just another one of my mistakes?
Dear Diary, today I lost my heart
to yet another man, and failed to change.
How ironic, I was supposed to be smart!
Why do I have to be so strange?
Dear Diary, I end this night’s write
with tears, and annoyance, and hurt;
he makes me feel such delight,
so how can I be such a pervert?
Matt H.
PS: Diary, I think I am gay,
or so I think, after today.
Author notes
Copyright@Adam Andersen
A contest entry
- Dear Diary: GLBT Poetry by Methodic Breakdown.
475 points, ended January 16, 2007, 13 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
Please tell me what you think
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thats so sad. thats kind of something what my diary looks like. great write.
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thats kinda sad, and kind of reassuring. many a entry in my own journal reflect the feelings of this poem. beautiful!
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omg. it is soooo what i feel like. but every one knows im gay.
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I really like this.
It's honest, truthful, heartbreaking.
Good write~
~ Dian
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Very well done! I like how well this fits in with the ideas I'm trying to express in my play. Thank you very much for entering, and good luck!
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I remember this stage of my life, when I struggled with the fact that I didn't just think he (generic) was cool, but cool meant that I had a crush on him. The thoughts running through you mind as if to say am I really gay? Is this just a phase? Do I like girls too?
Reading this piece really made me reflect on my own growth through the development of my sexuality. I can say that it really hit me hard with the notes questioning, and thinking is this wrong? but in the end coming to the realization that I am gay, and that's all I can be.
The write is a bit nostalic for me, and thus I have enjoyed it very much.
-Alpha Bet
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Good
you could add more but overwel yah cool -
BEAUTIFUL POEM!!
...oh, the anguish of desperately desiring the forbidden -- the anticipation, the gradual justification and, finally, the realization and consumation...!!
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this is a good piece of poetry i find which you have written here with some style, it holds a nice gentle rhythm to the poem and the flow is very nice indeed. i thank you very much indeed for sharing your poetic talent. i enjoyed reading it. i wish that you have good luck in the contest you have entered. spill ink and twist me into the crazy shape of love...
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love.
Wow, this really moved me. It's really hard to be yourself these days, with everything having to be 'just so.' The poem flows well, and gives a glimpse into whats going on inside your head. I like. =)
shinE*
. Rewarded 4
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A very honest and true
voice you have with
this piece of work, Poet.
I will keep my fingers
crossed for you in the
contest.
Love, Lane -
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your hot
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Its OK
Darling
So your blind heart
shall exceed itself trust
seeks delight in art
for your whirlwind lust.
I have resisted temptation
left bereft awaiting, undone
such a delicius sensation
my sacrifice without fun.
Were we to exchange
I'd still say go
repressions, desires and strange
within heart you know.
Smoosh
Janet
. Rewarded 4
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awesome
aww this is super sweet... and i love the fact that it rhymes but doesnt seem forced at all.... -
Awesome poem
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