On the crisp cusp of a cruel season
beauty blinds me to the dead and dying
because I know it will undo itself again
once the sun returns from its sojourn south.
Like a loose filmstrip in a projector,
winter strobes through it’s days
of black monochromatic meanness:
Flickering blank spaces are missing
like batting moving to lumpy places,
a sort of gathering of common things.
I shiver in those thin patches,
that always seem to barely cover
what needs the warming most.
Hydrangea holds its own in this and waits
in hard nubbins to spring at first warmth.
Not me, I know better than to be overjoyed.
I am hiding what I can, taking sustenance
from my roots that know this hard ground well
wishing I could skip this next season
that the heart knows as hurting.
Oh, I will bloom. I always do,
but late in my blooming and turning
to face a warmer sun, it is safer.
There are other things to harvest
then and less to be cut down
in infancy. A decade's training
makes me know spring
can kill as quickly as December.
Author notes
Teh angst builds as February 10th comes closer...and then the dreaded ides of march.... I can only let go of fear after April arrives.
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Comments
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This screams of seasonal depression to me....which I also suffer from....It is very hard to take sometimes but you mentioned February 10th in your author's note, specifically.....is it seasonal depression or is this date significant????
Nicely written with good imagery, thanks for entering and best of luck in the contest.........
Leance
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Since I can remember, Feb. 10 th has been auspicious and fate seems to send me a blow at this time of year. I lost mother, sister and sweetheart in a two week span during this time. I believe I may have some mild PTSD because so much has happened between Feb. 10 and the end of March through the years. Not just these three, but I tend to lose people close to me, I tend to have had my major illnesses come at this time...but please know, some awesome wonderful things have happened during these times as well; adoption, miracle healing, jsut to name two. It is an angsty time for me..it seems that, if anything is going to go wrong, it is during this time and if anything is going to go right, it wil be during this time..I jsut am not sure what this time will bring as it approaches. *gentle hug*
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