These Memories Hurt

Sometimes I block things out
The memories just hurt to bad
I remember when we were close
Now you can’t call or write
Nothing to let me know you care
Sometimes I feel if you were here
Everything would be ok again
Even though I’m older now
I still need you here
I can’t do some things on my own
Some girls just always need their dad
I love you no matter how mad or frustrated I get
You’re a huge part of me
I just wish we could make more memories of us
Things I can tell my child
Like how great her grandfather was or is
If you don't show up now
She will never know
I think of you everyday
Sometimes it just brings tears
I wish you knew how mad it makes me
But mostly how sad it makes me
It feels like maybe your happier without me there
It seems you picked everything over me
Like I wasn't good enough
I love you daddy no matter what's going on
I wish you knew that I do need you here
It’s still not to late