Abandoned

She was washed away with her last swig of Whiskey.
My mother, my drug abusing mother.
How at times I hated you.
Now I'm always missing you.

One day shes smiling.
The next shes dying.
I can still here your laugh.
That raspy laugh of yours.

How things happen so quickly.
Without a warning in sight.
She went without a goodbye.
Forever buried underneath.

My regrets cause nothing but pain.
My thoughts bring nothing but tears.
Sometimes I think I feel you.
Yet, sometimes I think I'm insane.

Nothing fits together anymore.
So many loose knots.
Without a soul to tie them.
Where will this pain get me?

I've lost any sanity I've ever had...
The day she slipped away.

Abandoned
Who will save me?
Why try to change me?
Abandoned
No end in sight.