As I sit here wiping my eyes
I am telling myself.. It'll be okay
But I know.. I always know
That it.. I; Will never be okay.
I know it is such a cliche'
but I cannot, and will not live
If I do not have you by my side
Though; I think for how much longer?
You're upset and I know the cause
Me. I am the cause of your sadness
I am what causes your grief.
And I am the cause of mine. My own.
Now when I tell myself everything is okay
I laugh a little.. Then cry a little more
And even though you say your not letting go
I have a feeling you already have.
And I'm scared and afraid.. But so frustrated.
Why couldn't I have put a little more in?
Why did I hold back? It is my fault.
Its always my fault. I accept that.
But Oh! How much I do not regret my tears.
For if I was not crying; I wouldn't be with you.
However much a relationship we have left;
We still have a relationship.
I love you; and I always will. I know that.
I know that it'll hurt, depress and anger me.
But I don't blame you; I do not blame you..
Don't worry. I blame me.
And now these tears are drying up.
Though I feel another river coming on.
I can never accept what is about to happen
But I will accept its what you want.
And now you are on your way to me.
And I'm sitting here, thinking about you.
With the River Nile running down my face
And I wait. In silence. For you.
Please tell me what you think
Comments
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beautiful work sweetie. keep ur head up an cheer up great piece so sad lol xx
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Wow i really this poem,... you shouldn't blame yourself like the person before me said a relationship is a 2 way thing...but again i really like this poem
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Well my dear, you most certainly shouldn't be blaming yourself only.. a relationship is a two way thing lovely and it relys on both of you being open and accepting of each others thoughts.. I'm sure you know this already but I'm re-enforcing it anyway...
It is obvious to me, that he really truly does care about you. Its obvious for anyone to see, and that you feel the same back.
You may think you cause him so much grief and sadness, but do you realize just how happy you make him? If you were so grieving for him, he wouldn't have stayed with you for half the amount of time he has.. I'm not going to kick out all the facts here, but he loves you, you know it. There are and always will be moments of down, but you will both pull through and in doing so, you will come to have great moments of up times...
If you feel like you haven't been giving enough, now is your time to do so and prove to him how much you need and want to be with him...
I have said this all before and I will continue to say it for as long as I need to.
Talk.
Together.
About everything your feeling and have felt.
Once you can get everything out in the air you can start to build yourselves back, if there is anything left hidden, it will come through later and put you back at teh beginning.. with all the things he said, there must be something that you want/need to tell him also. Let him know what you are comfortable with and what your not, if he cares about you as much as I see he does, he will respect you and not cause anything of the issue, and I guess, the same in his direction...
So yes. I have crapped on for long enough... I could say so much more but with what I have already said, I think you need to here no more..
Brilliantly written, as always my child, heads up eh?
Lets get drunk soon.
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