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The dreaded mirror.

I stand in front of the mirror for at least 1 hour before plucking up the courage to go to school.
I stand and look at my stomach, my hips, and my thighs in the dreaded mirror i have to face every morning.
To me, the mirror was like a deep hole in the ground that every morning I had to cloce my eyes and jump into, each time plummeting down and down, knowing that it would never end.

My friends said I was silly to worry about my weight, but I thought I needed to be skinnier.

 

Two months ago I stopped eating.
Since then I have noticed I have been shedding weight, but I have also been throwing up allot and haven't been able to be very active without fainting.
I always feel weak and sic, but when I try to eat something small I have an urge to throw up.
I become scared as I realise what is happening to me.
I realise that my friends were right but i cant bring myself to keep down food.
I have become depressed, I have isolated myself from the outside world.
I just wanted to loose some weight but It has become out of hand.
I know I must go for help but I'm scared, so I decide that I will tell my best friend what is happening to me.
Everything will be alright.
I'm going to be myself again.
And now I know, that's all I ever want to be.

Author notes

pro eating.
Anerexia is a growing desease.
I wrote this from the point of view of someone who is slowly loosing controll of herself.
I am lucky enough to be blessed with a healthy life. Spare a thought for those who werent so lucky.

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  • DAMSELx
    October 12

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    this gave me goosebumps. i love the fact that you're young and you wrote this because this is the age--when you're first entering high school--that you are familiar with these feelings more than ever. thank you for entering.

    --DAMSELx

  • Supersage
    September 2

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    i enjoyed reading this. You wrote this well its almost as if you have gone through this. Wow..so strong and raw. Defiantly captured someones life spiralling out of control


  • Irish-Maiden
    January 18

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    (in your author notes please tell me if you are pro or anti eating)
    This is a very good write, really enjoyable to read. Though you probably could have made it flow a little bit better so it'd be more poetic, but it is still very good.
    Good Luck