Who I am or where I go
Cause I never told you so
And now my tears flow.
Falling down, down again
Once again I’m in pain
I know I’m insane
Can you re-format my brain ?
I not got what I wanted
Even single day I’m haunted
Haunted by the thoughts looking at them
Trying to figure out what I am ?
Mummy I’m sorry
I never write too personal things on my computer or on my dairy so you don’t have to worry
I kept them inside of me
Now life seems not so easy.
I’ve watched the years gone by right before my eyes
Watched the girls naughty as well as cool as ice
And the school girls ? They were too nice
But look at me now my heart cries.
Against my wish they forced me to do
In pain and shame I’m gone through.
Jesus I don’t blame you
I blame myself & there’s no reason to argue.
Now I cry listening to Vengaboys and Aqua who came and gone
Sorry now rock music can’t turn me on
DJ Jean, DJ Mangoo I never saw them
But I’m in love with their tunes & and I love their jam.
I’m a dreamer I dream alot
In my dreams I have what I not got
And when I wakeup I’m an empty pot
Haunted by just one thought.
Shit! I cannot have my dinner peacefully
That dog is barking at me continuously
I lye down, I try to sleep
But I think and think, I like to imagine, I’m into deep.
I’m awake till 1 AM
Screw me! I dream a lot, I’m not like them.
I save that time to think
My thought will never shrink.
Oh my dream girl now my dreams will crush
I love to see you but you lost my touch
It’s been so long about 8 years
I know I cannot turn back time so I cry tears.
River flows I don’t know where it goes
I know we are too far yet we are near.
I just wanna hold her hand & give her a red rose
But I can’t only God knows.
I don’t know if I’ll ever see my own daughter play
Hug her, carry her and be with her everyday
Spend my time with my wife
Or be bachelor for life.
On my head there’s a heavy load
I walk alone on this lonely road
I’m tired, I’m bored
Can you chance my mode ?
Now I keep spinning that dice
Hoping that there would be a surprise
But No! The same old story in the end
Leaving me with just 3 options in my hand.
DAMN!
-Shuberth Dias-
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