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So I Write

So I write,
Until numbness overtakes my hand
Causing me to push further
Painfully scribbling my ramblings
For uninterested eyes to wield
My innermost soul
Desecrating without a second glance
As per usual.

So I write,
Because I cannot comprehend
Hear, smell, taste,
The dull light flashes,
Displaying my senses
On empty.
I continue my repetition
Of never ending bleakness
As the whine of my alarm
Echoes off the ruins of my resolve.

So I write
Because it scares my friends if I do anything else.
I am denied my civil right
To manipulate my body as I please
By shallow threats
Which could destroy
The crafty illusions that I have taken so long to build,
My strenuously backbreaking labor
Of the inner depths of my broken mind.

So I write
Even if I don’t want to,
Even if I hate the inadequacy that words present,
Even if I hate every single ink splotched page,
I write,
And write,
And write,
And wonder,
Why?
And I cannot answer
The simplest question my mind presents
And I cannot answer
Why you pretend to care.

So I write,
Continuously,
Forming my barriers
With well structured phrases and mannerisms,
While these fragile beams hold my heart
In the balance
Of insanity and emotional insatiability.

So I write.

Author notes

For all of you who read my stuff periodically, I'm sorry for the pause in new poems. There have been some, err, "happenings" which have taken every ounce of my attention.

This was written about a week ago, and I've been re editting it and revising it as I have seen fit. It just happens I was browsing through the contests before posting. I want honest opinions.

As always.

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Comments


  • GuardianAngel3
    March 3
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    this poem is so...amazing
    i cant even bring my feelings to words

  • SunkenMisery
    March 2
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    Good.

    This was really good. It showed lots of emotion. Thanks for entering! Good luck!

  • Lamia
    March 2

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    I think it definitely fits this contest. It sounds like you've got a lot of built up pressure within you and writing is barely scratching the surface of it all. I hope you find relief in writing or in your friends or in something that may bring you a bit of happiness. Good luck in the contest