I hide behind these walls in my head
Because outside I’m always wrong
I wander through these empty halls
I’ve been waiting for so long
I’m lonely and afraid to love
I wish someone would save me
My SOS goes unheard
It looks like no one will ever see
I crouch behind these walls of mine
And breathe in the damp air
Not pretty, not different, not unique
No, life has never been fair
Down my path to Hell again
In the darkness all alone
I only want to get away
From this raging, tormenting cyclone
I dry my eyes and hold my head up high
I won’t deny I’m weary, defeated
But I can’t stop, not by myself
My mission has yet to be completed
I dream to fly away from here
Stay in the air and never look back
Pretending I’m ready, completely whole
Forgetting all the things I lack
I was forgotten long so ago
Insignificant, scarred and cold
Pretending to feel, pretending to love
I can’t keep playing, I must fold
This is the end, my time to fall
No one here to save me from Hell
Always through me, never for me
Never seeing through this façade, this shell
I bleed knowing I’ll never be saved
My heart a heap on the dusty floor
No one tried, no, not for me
All along I was screaming for more
I wandered through those empty halls
I waited for so long
I hid behind the walls in my head
Because inside and out, I’m always wrong





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