Sitting in front of the house we grew up in, I remember you.
I already miss you.
It's only been a little while since you passed but I still need you.
I see a cloud above me and it makes me cry.
It's you saying,
wave goodbye, little one.
I'm not done.
How can I just wave goodbye to everything about you?
How can I go to your funeral and talk about you?
Your memory is too sweet for me to break apart on.
What the hell am I gon' do now that you're gone?
Who told you that it was okay to see the light?
Why did God take you from my side?
You have some nerve dying on me without a word.
Boy, you always had that tendency to be so absurd.
Your passing is like a sad song that no one's heard,
it sticks to your mind in an instant.
You didn't think about your death.
You weren't hesitant.
But now I'm sitting here on the porch of our childhood home thinking.
Maybe your dying was the right and just thing.
Not that I hated you.
Not that I wanted you gone.
I just think that you've found a better place.
You've found a better home.
I just wish I didn't feel so alone.
But you wanted to die so you died.
Now look at all the things you've left me,
did you know you had all these papers here inside?
All these bills and receipts and all the books?
Please!
I can't understand how you had become so cluttered.
You were the type of person who dared to clean.
You hated living in squalor.
But I'll love you forever, Kyle.
I can't wait to see you again.
I know it'll be a while.
And look, your name makes me rhyme slightly easier.
How funny.
I'll smile now that I'm thinking of you.
I'll dance with you in the wind when it blows because it'll be you.
I'll smoke a cigarette with you and you'll blow it out.
You hated that about me.
Smoking like a chimney.
I'll try to quit for you, my precious brother.
If I quit, tell mother.
She'd be happy to know too.
Dad won't care.
He was never aware of me, boo.
It's okay though.
I loved him too.
But I'll wave goodbye to our love and your life.
I'll think of you each and every night.
Take care.
Forever always.
No matter how hard I cry.
You'll always be on my mind.
A contest entry
- Simply Sad by Dorcha Runda.
420 points, ended May 26, 40 entries
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I'm Trying to send you a message but it won't work..I love this poem a lot..but I'm good thanks for asking...I added you as a favorite I find you and your poetry very interesting I can see you're a very expressive with your poetry I love it
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Bravo
beautiful! I was searching for an AP husband and came across your page. this is just breathtaking. it brought back so many memories from my own childhood and the way too many deaths that came into my life. beautiful!!
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wow!
This is a deep and emotional write... i love this whole poem... the picture complimented this poem perfectly! your words were awesome... and they put together this wonderful work of art... filled with such sorrow and pain! keep penning!
AWESOME!
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this is soo full of pain really good writ keep it up and just reameber well all be there sum day and the ones who pass are the lucky ones of us all
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wooow such along and meaningful poem...
Im sorry for your loss
This poems is beautifully written
Well done. could u look at my poems please.
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I like this poem a lot. I to felt a lot of anbger when my nephew passed.I still do not at him because his death was nbo fault of his own.Instead my anger is toward the cold hearted bastard who murdered him.A lot of people have told me it's nbeenb over a year get over it. My question is how do you get over a 16 year old dying?
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I really liked this poem. the emotion was very strong, along with the imagery and style, the reader couldn't help but too visualize your words. excellent write.
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its very hard to say goodbye when all you want to do is say hello there is no time limit on pain and grief when you can talk about him without breaking down then your half way there dont feel the most important thing is dont feel guilty for getting on with life your brother would only wish you happiness in your life if it was you that had of died you would be wanting the same for him he did find a better home but will never find a better brother who lves him so much loved your poem
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very very well writen..it showed so much emotion..and how much he really meant to you..losing sumone so close to you is one of the hardest things to deal with..I lost my sister about a year ago, nothing seems the same still..but in time things will get better..keep your head up
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That poem reminded me of people who passed in my life... it was really good. I loved it... hope to see some more poetry from you... later
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This was so intense and heart wrenching.
So much depth of feeling and painful emotion, this poem is a great big peice of your heart and it cries out in turmoil. It really hurt me inside when I read it such feelings, such emotions, this has got to be true, I don't think it would have been possible to have written this without feeling the pain that is portayed in this heart breaking write.
I hurt so much as I read your painful words, I could cry for you, this is the effect this poem of heartbreak has had on me. My heart and mind weep for you Is there anything I can do to help you at this sad time?
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I lost someone that was dear to me a couple of years ago...And Its hard to believe right now...But it does get easier with time...And the pain does get easier to deal with
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