It happened one evening
He forced himself on me
He had his wicked way
And left me there to bleed
I remember the day I learned
That you were deep inside
I curled up right where I was
And just started to cry
I wondered what I was to do
I was far too young
How could this have happened
This really can't be true
But the months passed
And silently you grew
Until I had no other choice
To him I must be true
So I told him
And ran away in fear
I tumbled down the flight of stairs
And cowerd where I land
The fists and feet keep coming
Horrid words he did scream
I lay there trying my best
But my best wasn't enough
A few days later I learn in horror
That my little girl was lost
The beating that her daddy gave
Tore my world apart
I regret my actions
I should never have told
But I am not one to keep something
That would affect him too
I hate him more then ever
For he took my angel away
But with that anger
Comes the love you see today
My little girl
I know your there
Always watching over me
Forever will you be
Another little angel
One who was given a better chance
And even though you are not here
Mommy loves you just the same
Author notes
About three years ago I lost my daughter, Melody, to her father's rage. I was 15 years old when he took what he wanted against my will and saddled me with her... For a long time I told myself I hated her, but as soon as I lost her... I knew I had been lying to myself. I loved her... and I still do, and I always will.
Mommy misses you Melody Samantha ♥
I also have Jaq to thank for giving me the courage needed to write this. Thanks hun 
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i'm very sorry......
good poem
but her father needs to die.
its because of people like him that the world is in the state its in today
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*tear* I'm thankful that the father of my baby loves his little girl. I'm so sorry for what happened to you love. No one deserves this. He's a creeper who deserves to die. Yes yes he is.
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god....
What a sick man... who would do something like this. It's just amazing what the hearts of some people can make them do... truly amazing, because of just how insane they go.
This poem was as beautiful as it was touching and saddening. This was just a poem of pure utter sadness and loss.
Hunny, no longer can I treat you like I have been... no longer can I look at you the same way, I am here for you, hun, I am waiting.
Phoenix
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This is something that seriously strikes hard and keeps one in a tight squeeze...
THAT FOOL DOESN'T DESERVE TO LIVE!
But that is life... Something's are best left in the past... But oh yes, the past can hurt and you can either run from it... Or... Learn from it.
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omgosh hun i am so sorry! i didn't know...i feel like i understand what you are going through like i have been there but the truth is is that i have never been there. but i understand so much. much more than what others might feel and understan who have never been through this kind of thing. honestly i do not know what to tell you exsept that i am sorry and i hope you know you can come to me for anything.
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awww baby
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oh hunny....this gae me goose bumps I'm so sorry to hear this :/ that is never something a girl should go through I'm so sorry that oyu ahve had to eal with this
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This is a beautiful poem. I am sorry to read it, though. I am sad for your loss. && As your poem says, she is still there looking down on you, watching over all that you do.
~S~
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hmm this may sound cruel but this is why we are allowed abortions so if we get pregnant we can get rid of it. no offence but thats just me
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I cant beleive I thought loosing my pappa was hard...
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There is no more sadder loss than that of a child, even one who isn't born yet, the potential they will never grow to be, my heart goes out to you.
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That was a very good piece and story. Im sorry about your loss.
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and you were there to aid the chance and maintain an innocence that sometime is lost for many good reasons. Lovely, but with the solemn feel plenty of hope. Beautiful!
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wow this is so powerful and emotional. A very sensitive write. I'm so sry for ur loss
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thank you for sharing you're story, this was obviously an awful trauma to have to go through. Good for you being so strong to write this. I can imagine you cried you're way through writing it down (I know I do on emotional pieces of poetry I write)
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i know all too well how it is to be so young and to be burdened- if you will- with some thing like that.
the only thing with me is i didnt llose my angel to rage to anger. but i have her a new life- one that i could not give her. at 15 i gave her up to people that were able to do what i could not. and all though i do not hear much from them i know, in my heart that i did the right thing.
My heart goes out to you, my fellow poet, for being able to write such a piece. it brings a tear to my eyes to think that this happens to so many young girls. but with penmanship like this they need to know that they are not alone.
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realy, i don't know what to say either. seems to sensitive of a subject. well i am here for hugs so heres
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...darc...i dont know what to say about this...its amazing...but its such dark and amazingly loving material its raw and a emotional roller coaster hate loss....love....its so....real...im so sorry darc guys arent like that....demons are... your the bravest poet i know now...
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i am so sorry for u...u write out emotion well...awsome poem, sad that u wrote it, sorry this happened to u, and ur babby. i hope u can overcome this, and move on with your life, always remebering, u now have one more person in heaven who will always guide u, and help u through troubled times.
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I had a hard time even getting through your main page. This poem is such an evocation of emotion it's amazing. It flows quite well in my opinion, too. I'm so sorry for your pain... You've come a long way.
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child of wisdom
child of pain
holds the dearest
of all the same
tears of pain
tears of lost joys
you lost your daughter
but stronger now for joy
He was a jerk
he stole your youth
killed your baby
and that's the truth
a mothers love
a mothers care
little sister
I'll hold you near
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Depressing.
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Well. That is the full story. And quite a story it is. It is quite a tragedy that you had to endure such things. For I am believer that life should not be about pain and suffering. Or having to worry about losing something precious to you, whether it is something material, your life or the life of another. I am sorry for your loss.
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I am so sad for you, but know you are strong. Your words moved me - you told it exactly how it was. That's how it should be - I always leave the reader guessing what my writing is about, for I feel ashamed. But I shouldn't. Thank you
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wow i am sorry to hear this if you ever need anyone to talk to i am here for you
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I read
Sometimes, we write to explore our most personal pain. The courage that it takes to come forward shapes us into the people that we will become. Your grief and anger are understandable and so is your desire to express it.
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I'm sorry baby, I couldnt imagine the pain you must be going through. and
I love you tons!
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It hurts each day
I have felt your pain for years. My mother beat me when I was 2 months preg. She beat me up over dishes. After 3 days, I lost the baby.......Don't be afraid anymore.
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I'm proud of you
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Sadly I understand this pain...lost a child in a similar fashion...my heart feels this pain, beautiful poem full of your heart...blessings always~ Trisha~
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Oh hun I can't imagine what you went through, you indeed show much courage in writing this. Love, C
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I really can't say much more than these beautiful comments, but loss is so hard, which on a personal note, shares what can only be described as understood, and only with experiences like sharing, can we compel how being distraught can be. Hope there is some light at the end of the tunnel somewhere for you. Sir Titus
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This really brought me to tears.. I went through this.. I am 20 years old and have already lost 3 children.. The first one that I lost was to my ex.. And It played out like this.. You really brought back memories with this write... It does take a lot of strength and courage to write something like this.. I'm glad that you had it. Thank you very much for sharing something so personal.
Angel
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You did great job letting this all out and it is well penned. I can easily put myself in your shoes. It's best to let it out.
Well done
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wow. very powerful writing here. I applaud your courage. This is a really moving poem.
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Its an incredable poem and although my story is slightly different I know the pain you felt. And this poem was all you. You already had the courage and the strenth you jsut had to realize it.
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i am a mommy as well
Although I didn't go through the death of a child, the mere possibility of it scares me to the core. Your words tore my heart up & made me hold my 5 month old tighter, thankful I haven't lost him. Thank you for having the courage to share this sad piece with us, & I wish you all the best from now on, for no mommy should have to go through that.
All thes in the world,
~Bright
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This is so sad I'm so sorry But you put it so beautifully. These are clearly words worthy of an angel.
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Very Poignant.
The sad but sensitive nature of this is heart-rending. The brutality of some people in this world is surpassed by only the devil. Most of the time I truely feel that it is the devil that is in some people that makes them do what they do. What angers me most is that they do not even seem to care about what they do. I am sorry but I have no compassion for these people only for those whom they abuse. May God wrap his everlasting arms around you and hold you close. I know that your daughter is with you all the time, as well with the Lord in Heaven. She is truely a Hevenly Angel and will be awiating you there when your time comes. Make the most of your life here so that she will always be proud of you. God bless you and take care.
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Gods bless, hun... a mother's love is not something replaceable.
...behold the world of inhibition and abuse.
Never forget the love you held.
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my Ap daughter... tears fall down my face as I read this.
I had no idea that you went through this.
words fail me
and yet I see that you have the strength and the courage to go on with your life.
yes your daughter will always look down on you and watch over you.
if you ever need a shoulder to cry one I'm here!
Bill
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Please pass the tissues for the tears are flowing over here...your words of abuse have torn at my heart and left feelings of great need to hug you I am so sorry for your loss!! thank you kind soul for sharing this with me
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Dear Rose, I am saddened at reading this. You had to endure this degrading act at age 15. This is heartbreaking. I admire you for going forward. You can overcome this tragedy in your young life. Now you will be even a stronger person, a more loving person, a more loving Mother whenever that day comes. I am proud of you for the stand you have taken. Some day you will find true love. Wait for true love. Take care of you and God Bless you dear one. Katie Lazette
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you have been through a lot at such a young age, you have courage and strength the fact that you have written this means you have started to look forward rather than back. You must continue forward now and re build your life and channel your energys into something positive to help you deal with life and memories. I wish you peace and future happiness
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I'm horridly sorry that this happened to you hun....if you ever need to talk, you know where I am.
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Wow. I'm very very sorry to hear that. I can't really think of anything to say...
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Yes, this is sad, but not depressing. This is a very important message to put forth to the people. Some are ignorant and needant remain that way. And expressing how you felt then and how you feel now is very important for pushing forward in your life. Thanks for sharing. UNT
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I am very sorry to hear this and same as the person before i wouldn't say i'm sorry this happened to you because world the world is full of cruelty and sorry doesn't change a thing but i am glad to know that you know she is here with you not in body but in soul because it's true and you should continue to keep that in mind and i know you will. A person will die but that is only their body and then their soul is set free and their spirit and they are always with you no matter what and when you have a another baby girl you never know Melody Samantha might be in her. Kepp up being strong Ash i know you can
~Silky 
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This is a sad sad poem. I never knew you had a daguther before. Were you pregnant with her or how old was she? I'm sorry this happenned. This should never have to happen to you
Luckily though, you will always have your little angel looking over you. I love you ashwers. TAke care of yourself. I wish I could be there to help you. Love you!
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I could say I'm sorry this happened to you but sorry wont bring back your angel.This must have been so hard for you to have gone through.I commend you on having the strength to write this and to not have gone and killed him. As I don't think i could have or would have let him live.
I hope you have found peace in the knowledge that your baby will always be with you.
Take care of yourself
xxx
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That made me cry. It would be so amazingly hard to live through that, and at 15?!?! I commend you for living on.
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oh sweetheart..
im so sorry tht you went through this no man has the right to do this,..
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darling, i am so sorry i know how much courage it takes to write about losing a child, no matter what the circumstances it hurts all the same, and at 15 we should not have to go through this.
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Wonderful write hun.
You did a magnificent job.
It's hard to lose a child, even if its through rape and being beat up.
I'm here for you if you need to talk.
I'm so sorry for your lost.
s
Kayla
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*hugs* thanks... and dammit im littler im hte only one allowed to beat him up
you can beat james
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James would enjoy it to much if I beat him up
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Well written, powerful and painful.
This took a lot of courage to write Rose, well done. Sorry for your loss....They say time heals...I don't believe that, I think it just numbs us a little bit more..
Bravo
'D'
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thanks bro
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AMAZING BUT SAD!
i love sad poems they show emotion and how the writer actually feels i have written some sad poems too. but well done
ya Miranda
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sadly its also true...
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What a write!!
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Thank you... it wasnt easy for me to write...
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