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As I sit at my desk
I constantly catch her from the corner of my eye,
Swearing when she can’t work out percentages,
She has my heart beating so fast I think I’m gonna die.

I love the way she count’s on her fingers,
And how she’s always setting her fringe,
I love how she could talk for England,
And her daily 10:30 whinge!

Lately she’s been feeling sad
Because her grandma past away
I feel so hopeless and so useless
Because I just don’t know what to say

Do I want to encourage her to speak about her emotions?
Or do I try to take her mind off things?
Do you try to make her laugh?
Or do you tell her life is just roundabouts and swings?

I wanna put my arm around her
And tell her “let it all out”
But she doesn’t want to share with me
I feel like she’s putting our friendship in doubt.

I know, I know it’s totally egocentric of me to worry about myself when she’s just lost a loved one! And I need to give her space.

If she would just talk to me
Let me share her pain
I wanna help her get through this
As a friend simple and plain

Yes I have feelings for her
This I can’t deny
But that’s not why I’m doing it
I just want to help her get by

I wanna see the smile on her face
It pains me to see her cry
I invite her to talk to me
“I’m not ready yet” was her reply

I feel like I’ve just been brushed off
Then the possibility of her thinking begins to dawn
I hope she doesn’t think ill of me
Like I’m trying to use this situation as a pawn

Maybe I should stay away
Just let her deal with her issues
I can still be her friend
Without being the guy passing the tissues

Then I see her sad little face
With her head in her hands
Oh grandma why’d you have to go
I guess it’s all part of God’s plans
But that doesn’t help the way she’s feeling
I guess nothing I say will help with the healing!