Long.

Eyes glazing over.
I have to keep blinking...
...to clear them.

yet they still glaze over.





I see television reflections blurred
in glasses that don't help tired eyes see





She's still barking through blasting headphones.

raising the volume makes her bark louder
even louder. even louder. even louder.





She had a problem.
He has a bigger problem.

and my problems are their problems too.





bbbbbbbbbbbbbbbb
my B key seems to be broken.

dddddddddddddddd

my D key is just fine.





aching. bottle of pills.
make it fine.
make it go away.





Jack White of the White Stripes

Ryan Murphy. YouTube.





Just keep my fingers flowing.
Keep make words. Write whatever is on my mind





Popup.







Mocha Cream Tea Hot Money





Raven's claws scratch
latching onto broken bones

like a grave yard monster cawing out
calling out like a child to it's mother
desire for air not far from desire for blood





shoplifting music. illegal downloads.
limewire why wont you work for me today.





submit column. not yet. not done.





shrill. drill. pill. kill.





universe full of stars
searching the skies
open eyes.





Copying quotes word. for. word.

out of books.
scrawling lines in notebooks.
killing time.

time killing.
end of the world.

earthquake.





In her mind she's shaking
blinding sunlight.  devil wants another sin.

Hurry make it happen.





Necklace. Neck. Lace.



Lace up your shoes.
Another day.

day.

day.

day.







A castle made of clay.

Princess button.





I wish i could teach you how to fly.
Lost my wings long ago.

under ground.

wrists bound.





why do i feel the need to RHYME?

I hate rhyming poetry.

toooooo cliche!





pop rocks.
pop locks.

locked out.

shout out.

out cast
out last.





I'm rhyming again.

Break the habit.

tonight.





"she's not bleeding on the ballroom floor
just of the attentions
come on that's just ridiculous."







Crank it.









Assorted flavors.

collect them all.

collecting bones.

pull the trigger.

stripped tiger.





golden wrappers.
I've got the golden ticket!





Browse
Bowser
Brower.





Lewis Brower. ♥





becky. beck.

michelle beck.

hell.

yell.

mother may I?

no.

shame.

blame.

name game.



rhyme!





it's natural.





I see you sitting there.
English class
"I work at a library"
"So does my mom"
"cool."
"yeah"
"read to me"
"okay"



I miss him.

He was always so nice to me.

I liked him.
Even when i wasn't suppose to.
If only.
If only.

[ if you're quiet you can hear the woodpecker cry ]





Thinking back there!
there were those that would have been so much better.

I wish. They had the chance to be better for me.



the best.

we lost ties.







poor lewis.
no. not. poor. lewis.

POOR ME.





Bryan too.
I think of him often.

fire. loss of home.
I wish there was something I could have done.

But i was going through tragedy of my own.

I saw the hurt in his eyes when he found out about my
dad having cancer through another person.
"Why didn't you tell me"
" I didn't know how"
" You need to talk to me"

I wish I had.



maybe we'd still be talking.

I graduated and he just...stopped calling.
and I lost his number.
I don't even know where he lives now.
It breaks my heart.

[ I'm thinking about crying ]
I think i need him.

I know i need someone



someone i've lost contact with.



Bryan. Matt. Adam. Mike.



I don't know that they know how much they meant to me.
still mean to me. even if I don't talk to them today.

I still think about them all the time.
I hope. I wish. to run into them sometime.

I wish they'd come to the library for some reason and find me working.

[ i know they wouldn't come into the children's department. ]





Free write has dwindled me down into tired. emotional. tears.



I don't know if I should call that a success. a fail. a....