Too Much To Take

My ears are buzzing,
My head is racing,
My wrists are throbbing,
And I feel like I'm falling.
My mind is blank,
Everything seems fake,
The numb that I'm feeling
Is just too much to take.

My body's aching,
My hands are shaking,
My control is wavering,
And I feel like I'm breaking.
My mind is empty,
Everything seems fake,
This life I'm not living
Is just too much to take.

My arms are bleeding,
My hands, still trembling,
My release is nearing,
And now I'm fearing.
My mind is jumbled,
Everything seems fake,
The razor in my hands,
Is just too much to take.

The monitors are beeping,
My heart is barely beating,
I am hardly breathing,
And I feel like I'm dreaming.
My mind is spinning,
Everything seems fake,
This pain that is killing me,
Is becoming too much to take.

My eyes are opening,
My mind is clearing,
Nothing is spinning,
And I'm finally feeling.
My head's still blank,
Everything's still fake,
The cuts I kept making
Just became too much to take.