My Story

hello my name is ashley i am a survivor hard to belive i was abuse by my birth
mom who is an addict to meth and a lot of other drug. and when i was a 3d grade we got kicked out into the streets and hade no ware to go so my dad hade my and my bro andy stay at my grandmas andd aslo at that time my dad was dateing a bitch name ella she was a indian and she also abuse uwhen my dad was around and she hit my dad and was an acoholic. but anyways my dad found a place in a town i am at. it was tarrible but it yopu look at it now people think it looks   

when we first moved in it we hade NOTHING i mean  NOTHIN loke no food, bed nothin my dad worked so hard we were first befor him. i would cry every night we struggled bad. but we got back on are feet and my dad left that bitch and foumd the best mom in the world. but at that time i hated her i thaght all she wanted to do was replace my mom when i was in 5 gr my mom visittashoin got takein away i went crazy tou know like shit thats my mom i cant ever see agine.
I when throe cuting (wrist,lagse)and yes drugs (pot) and drinking pill poping, suiside running away, boys over age  AND  hating god.my life was hell i hurt my family friends. but that didnt matter i didnt care all i do is get intruble with parents ,school,law but i didnt care all i cared was myself geting nume and trying to excape the world.
I would cry all the time for my mom.but i now reilize anyone can have a kid but it takes a person to be a mom and she was not at all. all she would do is beat us and sleep around.
I was a crake baby i almost died becouse of her. wat a cold heart bitch all she dose a lie . we have nothing to do with her side of the family becouse they are all the same worthless and dont care about no one but them self.i went down a bad road to hell i didt trust know one. but then i met a guy name kyle."kyle" drinked and lissin to screamo and me and him when to a few concerts and moshpit witch ROCK yes i am wild. but he made me belive in every word her said about life love and bull shit and i fell for him. but them he hurt me he cheated on me wow. i was awsome to him but then i thaght there was no point to life i hade 1 thing good in myt life and i lost it i thaght it was my fult he did it so i tryed to end my life but fail.
after that some how my dad found out i been in counsoiling my whole life pritty much so it was no diffrent. but they put me on pills i calles them happy pills lol. but they help i quit all my habbits and started talking to the world.
and starteds being happy.i went to a bible camp and i found god. i broke down cryin like in the past i hate god i thaght he was the reson my life was fucked up. it wasnt it was mine. now i have him in my lfe ,baptize, ex cutter and now tyin to finish school and go to croosroad collge to thats my story not all of it but enuff to know................................