Schizophrenia

Alone in my closet
I sit and stare
And wait for voices
to tell me they're there...

They've been with me
Since I was a teen
I've learned to cope
Though I'm no queen.

In my mind I have six
and a crowd who babble
It's sometimes like
they are all playing scrabble

I've learned to function
with them all there,
Once voice is nice and
I know she cares

The rest are mean
and tell me what to do
Shouting orders
Leaving me with no clue

I've tried everything
To get them to go
but they won't listen
when I say no

I have a few theories
about what they are
ghosts trapped without bodies
or aliens from afar

I take medicine
to keep them calm
It keeps them quiet
but not for long

Earplugs are a must
for me these days
Without them my life
goes by in a daze

There are a few things
I'm willing to confess
With these voices
My life is a mess

I can't work much and
I can't do some things
It's living a nightmare
that just stays and clings

They order me to kill myself
On a regular basis
I fight to stay alive
live on the oasis

There is a high rate
of suicide
I understand why
nothing abides

Imagine your worst fears
all coming true
Then imagine what
You think you'd do

Drown yourself,
Slit your wrists
Take all the pills
Oh I insist!

You're worthless
useless, nothing you are!
Just kill yourself already
Drown in a car.

You see it's hard
but I'm used to it
I just go on and
take their shit