God help me,
I can’t believe
He’s touching me.
He says, “I love you.”
But I just met him
A few hours ago.
His hands are hot and rough.
He makes me bleed.
I cry out for help,
But he smothers my face
With his mouth.
I try to push him away,
But his weight pins me
To the bed.
How’d I get here?
His hands pry my legs open.
God help me!
He’s entering me,
Slamming into me,
Ripping me apart.
It hurts like hell.
I cry and try to push
Him off of me again.
No one can help me.
I can feel his evil seed
Explode inside me.
I gasp at the pain.
There’s blood all over
The sheets.
He passes out from having
Too much to drink.
But before he sleeps,
He declares his love
For me once more.
I push his heavy body
Off mine and try to
Find my clothes
That he tore off of me.
I know his name.
But I don’t tell anyone.
I’m ashamed.
I’m afraid.
God help me…I need the strength
To carry on. To be brave.
I want to die.
But instead, I sleep
When I get to my home.
I’ve let another man
Rape me again.
Author notes
I've been raped several times throughout my life. This is a poem about the last time a man has ever taken advantage of me. I'm a contributor for RAINN thanks to Tori Amos and after this happened, I wanted so badly to call them, but part of me just couldn't emotionally handle repeating the events on the phone. So I kept this to myself until recently. I think this man is in jail now. For what, I don't know. I just know that it was stupid of me for not reporting this. He tore my vagina up and I was sore for a good week thanks to him. I bled for a few days afterward. All I have to say to those who have been abused or raped, please report it. Don't be like me and keep it to yourself. This is a new poem, by the way. Just wrote it several hours ago.
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Comments
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this wasnt your fault, raping is never anyone's fault but the person who did it. dont ever let yourself down because of that.. but great piece, keep up the good work dear<3
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Its never your fault. Keep on going strong.
Dani. -
You don't let a rape happens. The choice is taken from you. They force you into it. It is not your fault. You never deserved it.
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