You pick me up, ready for a night of fun
A night I will never forget
You drive slowly, without a clear purpose
Or so it would seem
You had planned ever since we met, to steal what was mine
A never leting me forget
You lock the doors, pinning me to my seat
Take that knife, put it against my neck
I can smell your breath, dripping with harsh alcohol
It brings tears to my eye, to be so near to you
Slowly, you move your hand down my torso
Ripping at the zipper, you found what you wanted
I scream for help but no one can hear me
I start to fight back, you can't take this from me!
It's not yours to give away
You press on the knife on my throat, enough to draw a drop of blood
I stop struggling, sobbing into the seat
Your done stealing a part me, you slip back not caring where I went
I fumble for the lock, ready to bolt when the door gives
I gather my clothes from the floor, running from your car
I walk home, dazed by whats just happened
I unlock the door, lay down on my bed and cry
Slowly, I digest what has happened, realizing you've taken a part of me
You stole my innocence, something that I hold dear to my heart
You gave me nightmares to relive night after night, day after day
I never thought this would happen to me, anyone but me
I was only fourteen!
You should have known better, I thought I loved you
I trusted you, never thinking you would do this to me
I won't be a victim, I will be a survior
Author notes
It's about my rape which happened 2 1/2 years ago. It resulted in ,which I had to have an abortion because it was killing me and the baby. It's dedicated to Micheal, my unborn baby, he would've been born in late October.
A contest entry
- Silent All These Years (for rape and sexual assault survivors) by SerenityNChains.
1750 points, ended November 9, 50 entries
• next poem in this contest, remove from contest
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i feel your pain my uncle raped me when i was 12 against my will i felt like he had just ripped my heart out
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Wow. Very touching write.
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Im so sorry for what happened to you, i cant quite say i know how you feel but i can say that none of this was your fault and your a very strong girl also a very good writer... keep up the good work and dont ever give up dear <3
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I am so sorry that this happened to you. I know how feel sweetie, and I totally relate to this. I was raped too, and it is the worst feeling in the world. All the shame you feel, the depression and the nightmares. The nightmares are the worst. I get them just as soon I try to move on from it. Hang in there, I'm here for you if you need to talk.
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OMG! This has really hit a nerve with me because our stories are so similar... I was 14 when the same thing happened to me and it also resulted in me becoming pregnant with a baby that would have been born late October/early November if I hadn't had an abortion which I'll regret for the rest of my life.
Love your poem
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wow. i, too, am sorry this has happed to you. this really tells the tale without too much information but enough to get the point and to tell the feelings. i don't blame you for having nightmares. i would too. good job on telling your story. and i agree, you will be a survivor. keep strong, girl. im here for you if you need me
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wow, one im so sorry such a tragedy happened to you and i will pray everyday its heart wrenching that he told something you cant get back and how it will scare you for ever, i keep you in my prayers and hope god blesses you with some sort of closer and 'revenge' or maybe an eye for an eye. as for the poem its a great written the story was told clearly and painted the horrible picture
great write.
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oh sweet...I'm sorry...I am sorry for you, your pain, that the person that did this...and sorry for your wee one.
I know...from my own experience...that it really can just....torment, gnaw away at your being...I don't know if it gets better...but I sure hope so...
I relate to the line, especially
"I trusted you, never thinking you would do this to me
I won't be a victim, I will be a survior"
keep writing...well done.
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A very graphic and sorrowful write! I am so sorry that you had to endure this torture. I know from my personal experience that other people's sickness and selfishness can destroy what was once you. Thank you for sharing this piece! Very well done!
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