I'm someone who has a death wish
one that remains unnatainable.
I tend to be very angry
because I wanna have control.
I want to believe that I'm useless
but my potential shines as bright as light.
I've realized that life is pointless
and yet I continue to strive and endure.
I tend to cling to things
and have a hard time letting go.
I put myself on the line
even for ones I later find undeserving.
I will be rich and successful
even though I believe I'm undeserving.
I have a self esteem problem
but I'm not a worthless emo that complains
nor will I ever cut myself.
I value the trusted few friends that I have
even though I don't have the greatest way of showing it.
I still care for people that hate me
even ones that have conned and deceived me.
I love modern rock music
because with most of the lyrics I feel I can relate.
I dedicate myself to a cause
even if it slowly kills me inside.
I guess on occasions I am insecure
though I've accepted this
and tried to zone in on this weakness
so does this constitute as insecurity?
I'm someone you can trust
yet I cannot trust myself.
I'm very forgiving
and yet I'm quite resentful.
I'm very bad
at concealing the hands I play.
I'm also very bad
at pretending nothing's wrong.
I'm very emotional
I tend to let it out.
And yes I do cry on occasions
looking at my Paradise Lost.
I played the game of fate
got burned and got what I deserved.
I'm very intellegent
I always know the right decision.
Yet I pretend to be ignorant
and often times I don't choose the right path.
Most people that were in my life
were in it for themselves.
I always try to take the blame
but know most times it's not the case.
I'm not good at taking complements
but appreciate respect that I get.
I think I am very mature
though a few shallow minds would love to disagree.
I am very loving
and I am very giving.
But every time I open up
I find it was a grave mistake.
I'm very good at poetry
though this piece might reflect otherwise.
I stray away from what people think
yet on some occasions my fear's based on it.
Capable of being
the most respected human being.
I have a few enemies
the only one I fear is myself.
Author notes
No holding back, it's time to come to terms with who I am, and I can only hope that it will form me in to who I want to be.
Wall, based on the first few lines, I'll retract that statement, and simply say, something that will bring me to the point of success.
My song and words of inspiration, comes from a brand new Staind song. "You'll never change, or rearrange, the way I am. So leave me be, the way I am."
Share with me your interpretations.
Comments
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You are you and only you and Shadow, i wouldnt want you any other way.
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Right On
I commend you on this piece, one of the best pieces i've seen from you and your a talented writer so...but this was like a piece of you soul in words...not sure how else to put it. Excellent example of "you being you".
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It's good to say it as you see it
keep writing for within your word is continued growth of mind and spirit. Remember we are ever changing. Everything is ever changing. Nothing is static. If it was we would not be here.
Well done yet again.
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well yes this is you, but there are a few parts I would disagree... one being that at least with one situation in mind *and you know what that is* you did not get what you deserve. At the same time I will say that yes alot of this is you... and I am more then sure others will read this and say "yes this is me" ALOT of people think with their heart and give their heart to people who dont deserve such a gift.. that doesnt mean that those people deserve to be heartbroken for that fact. Anyways... you did well with this ... it wasn't the typical poem or the typical type of writing you normally do, you did well at expressing your thoughts on who you believe you are.
"Who are you? You are you, and You are great! and fuck you to those who are only fake!" HAHA
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