Daddy

"Daddy" 09.28.08

When people ask about you
They get a the blankest stare
I simply tell them the truth
About a man who doesn't care

I used to lie about you
And say you died so long ago
But now I tell them the truth
About the man I do not know

In my eyes you don't exist
Because I do not know your face
I lived my whole life fatherless
And that will never change

So what can I say about you
The man I used to know?
How can words describe what I've been through
Only to watch you go?

On fathers day I did not mind
To get distracted with something else
When the other kids would ask about mine
I just frowned to myself

But looking back on wasted years
Meaningless pain, and useless tears
That all along someone was here
Though it took so long to make it clear

So what do I say about my dad?
The one who left? Whom I never had?
I do not cry for I'm not sad
In fact, I'm rather quite glad

So as I end this ode to a man
Living on a beach somewhere
I'll never lie about you again
And tell them you just dont care.

I'll tell them that you hate me
Because you admitted that to be true
I'll tell them about the man I seen
Underneath the mask, its you.