my addiction is greater than any drug known drug.

my addiction is greater than any drug known drug.
you can only find it through certain people.
the drug i love got me on teh first time.
addicted for life labled on me head.
i love it. i hate it. i cant live iwthout it.
i tried to leave it, but it wouldnt let me.
it said it felt like kiling itself because of me.
it would mis me too much to live on.
so i stayed, but not entirely guilty because i loved it.
everyone told me it was bad.
it would hurt me.
it would kill me.
but do who do i listen too?
my family and friends or it that i love so much.
do they know it. they dont know how much it and i are alike.
they dont understand why i say we are alike.
but they are ignorant people who cant see the love i have.
but soon i started to see it everyday.
addiction growing faster than supply.
even it knew it.
so it decided to cut me off.
so in return i cut it off.
now it wants me to treat it like before.
but no, i cant. the pain of it the pain doing it too high.
if i had the chacne to back to the day i did it, would i still have done it knowing that this would have happend?