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I am a teenager from Brisbane, Australia and if you want to know my age well I am not gonna tell you because knowing my age is completely unessacary and irrelevant. I have been expelled from two different schools just because I am "different". I have no friends that I can trust. I am also a bisexual cross dresser and I have lost friends and family over these things.

I enjoy watching T.V. and watching music dvds. I also enjoy singing and dancing. I enjoy cutting myself and watching the blood stain my sheets when the time comes for it. Furthermore, I enjoy staying up to ridiculous hours of the morning and doing absolutley nothing but drinking coffe and watching a blank T.V. screen just thinking of life and random ideas.

~~I could Care Less~~

Every time you speak my name
My image it just burns away
Every time you speak my name
My image it just burns away
Gimme that
I could care less than for your granduousity
I had to skin the cat for curiousity
I cold care less for your sickening pompous ways
Every time you speak my name My image it just burns away
I could care less
Don't you know our lives are on trial now
And if we lose we'regoing straight to hell
Gimme that
You must excuse me I'm just not really myself
Woke up today inside, inside of someone else
I could care less than for your sickening pompous ways
Every time you speak my name
My image it just burns away
I could care less
Don't you know our lives are on trial now
And if we lose we're going straight to hell
Straight to hell
I could care less
Straight to hell

~~DevilDriver~~
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~~Before The Hangman's Noose~~

It's a good day to fuckin' die
A good day...a fucking good day
Truth be told the water looks cold
And the trees fly by as we drive
The sun goes down
Sometimes I wanna stay Sometimes I wanna leave
Sometimes I gotta ride
Riding this rail I know what I'm on
But not know what I'm in for
This train to nowhere seems to never end
As far as I can tell...Hell
Before all hell breaks loose
Before the hangman's noose
And as the sun goes down
I'll say
It's a good day to die. A good day to die
Before the Hangman's noose
I'll say
It's a good day to die. A good day to die
No more stops. Time to punch your ticket
This time this ride is one way
I can see a shadow of a man
And he's coming my way
Riding this rail I know what I'm on
But not know what I'm in for
This train to nowhere seems to never end
As far as i can tell...Hell
Before all hell breaks loose
I'll say
Before the hangman's noose
And as the sun goes down
I'll say
It's a good day to die. A good day to die
Before the hangman's noose
I'll say
It's a good day to die. A good day to die
This day will be mine
Shit
before all hell breaks loose
I'll say
This day will be mine
Before the hangman's noose
It's a good day to die.

~~DevilDriver~~
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"My name is Sarah
I am but three,
My eyes are swollen
I cannot see,
I must be stupid
I must be bad,
What else could have made
My daddy so mad?
I wish I were better
I wish I weren't ugly,
Then maybe my mommy
Would still want to hug me.
I can't speak at all
I can't do a wrong
Or else I'm locked up
All the day long
When I awake
I'm all alone
The house is dark
My folks aren't home.
When my mommy does come
I'll try and be nice,
So maybe I'll get
just One whipping tonight
Don't make a sound!
I just heard a car
My daddy is back
From Charlie's Bar.
I hear him curse
My name he calls
I press myself
Against the wall.
I try and hide
From his evil eyes
I'm so afraid now
I'm starting to cry.
He finds me weeping
He shouts ugly words,
He says its my fault
That he suffers at work.
He slaps me and hits me
And yells at me more,
I finally get free
And I run for the door.
He's already locked it
And I start to bawl,
He takes me and throws me
Against the hard wall.
I fall to the floor
With my bones nearly broken,
And my daddy continues
With more bad words spoken.
"I'm sorry!", I scream
But its now much too late
His face has been twisted
Into unimaginable hate.
The hurt and the pain
Again and again
Oh please God, have mercy!
Oh please let it end!
And he finally stops
And heads for the door,
While I lay there motionless
Sprawled on the floor.
My name is Sarah
And I am but three,
Tonight my daddy
Murdered me."

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~~Oddity~~

This is the way it's got to be
Crawl beneath this filthy ground
And underneath this dirty ground
I crawl beneath this filthy ground
And underneath these dirty leaves
Seems to me to be the insanity
It seems to me I've become the oddity
It seems to me I need some identity
Keep this high now keep this high
Said I better
Keep this high now keep this high
Said I better
Keep this high now keep this high
Said I better
Keep this high now keep this high
This is the way it's got to be
No fear, so depraved, break

~~Coal Chamber~~
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~~Ten Thousand Fists~~

Survivor
One more god damn day
when I know what i want
and my want will be considered tonight
Consider tonight
Just another day
when all that I want
will mark me as a sinner tonight
I'm a sinner tonight, yeah
People can no longer cover their eyes
If this disturbs then walk away
You will remember the night you were struck by the sight of ten thousand fists in the air
Power unrestrained
Dead on the mark
is waht we'll deliver tonight
Deliver tonight
Pleasure fused with pain
This triumph of the soul
will make you shiver tonight
We'll make you shiver tonight, yeah
People can no longer cover their eyes
If this disturbs you then walk away
You will remember the night you were struck by the sight of ten thousand fists in the air
we are the ones that will open your mind
Leave the weak and haunted behind
People can no longer cover their eyes
If this disturbs you then walk away
You will remember the night you were struck by the sight of ten thousand fists in the air

~~Disturbed~~
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HOMOPHOBIA IS WRONG!

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the man who died when the paramedics stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didnt have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

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~~Cryptorchid~~

Each time I make my mother cry
An angel dies and falls from heaven
When the boy is still a worm It's hard to
Learn the number seven
But when they get to you
It's the first thing that they do
Each time i look outside
My mother dies, I feel my back is changing shape
When the worm consumes the boy It's never
Considered rape
When they get to you
Prick your finger it is done...
The moon has now eclipsed the sun...
The angel has spread its wings...
The time has come for bitter things...

~~Marilyn Manson~~

~~You Learn~~

I reccommend getting your heart trampled on to anyone
I reccommend walking around naked in your lving room
Swallow it down (what a jagged little pill)
It feels so good (swimming in your stomach)
Wait until the dust settles
You live You learn
You Love You Learn
You cry You learn
You lose You learn
You bleed You learn
You scream You learn
I reccommend biting off more than you can chew to anyone
I certainly do
I reccommend sticking your foot in your mouth at anytime
Feel free
Throw it down (the caution blocks you from the wind)
Hold it up (to the rays)
You wait and see when the smoke clears
You live You learn
You love you learn
You cry You learn
You lose you learn
You bleed You learn
You scream You learn
Wear it out (the way a three-year-old would do)
Melt it down (you're going to have to eventually anyway)
The fire trucks are coming around the bend
You live You learn
You love You learn
You cry You learn
You lose You learn
You bleed You learn
You scream You learn
You grieve You learn
You choke You learn
You laugh You learn
You choose you learn
You pray You learn
You ask You learn
You live You learn

~~Alanis Morissette~~
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I'm EMO, so I MUST cut my wrists.

I'm BLACK, so I MUST carry a gun.

I'm HISPANIC, so I MUST be dirty.

I'm ASIAN, so I MUST be smart.

I'm JEWISH, so I MUST be greedy.

I'm GAY, so I MUST have AIDS.

I'm a LESBIAN, so I MUST have a sex-tape.

I'm ARAB, so I MUST be a terrorist.

I SPEAK MY MIND, so I MUST be a bunny

I'm OVERWEIGHT, so I MUST have a problem with self control.

I'm RELIGIOUS, so I MUST shove my beliefs down your throat.

I'm an ATHEIST, so I MUST hate the world.

I DON'T HAVE A RELIGION, so I MUST not have morals.

I'm REPUBLICAN, so I MUST not care about poor people.

I'm DEMOCRAT, so I MUST not believe in being responsible.

I'm JAMICAN so I must smoke weed.

I am LIBERAL, so I MUST be gay.

I'm SOUTHERN, so I MUST be white trash.

I TAKE ANTI-DEPRESSANTS, so I MUST be crazy.

I'm a GUY, so I MUST only want to get into your pants.

I'm IRISH, so I MUST have a bad drinking problem.

I'm INDIAN, so I MUST own a convenient store.

I'm NATIVE AMERICAN, so I MUST dance around a fire screaming like a savage

I'm PREPPY, so I MUST shun those who don't wear Abercrombie & Hollister.

I'm a CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be a stuck up bunny.

I'm on a DANCE team, so I must be stupid, stuck up, and a bunny.

I wear skirts a lot, so I MUST be a bunny.

I'm a PUNK, so I MUST do drugs.

I'm YOUNG, so I MUST be naive.

I'm RICH, so I MUST be a conceited snob.

I WEAR BLACK, so I MUST be a goth.

I'm BLONDE, so I MUST be a stupid ditz.

I'm a WHITE GIRL, so I MUST be a nagging, steal-your-money kind of girlfriend.

I'm CUBAN, so I MUST spend my spare time rolling cigars.

I'm MEXICAN, so I MUST have hopped the border.

I'm NOT A VIRGIN, so I MUST be easy.

I FELL IN LOVE WITH A MARRIED MAN, so I MUST be a home-wrecking bunny.

I'm a TEENAGE MOM, so I MUST be an irresponsible bunny.

I'm POLISH, so I MUST wear my socks with my sandals.

I'm ITALIAN, so I must have a big peter.

I GOT A CAR FOR MY BIRTHDAY, so I MUST be a spoiled brat.

I'm PRETTY, so I MUST not be a virgin.

I HAVE STRAIGHT A'S, so I MUST have no social life

I DYE MY HAIR CRAZY COLORS, so I MUST be looking for attention.

I DRESS IN UNUSUAL WAYS so I MUST be looking for attention.

I'm INTO THEATER ART, so I MUST be a homosexual.

I'm a VEGETARIAN, so I MUST be a crazy political activist.

I HAVE A BUNCH OF GUY FRIENDS, so I MUST be bunny them all.

I HAVE A BUNCH OF GIRLS WHO ARE FRIENDS, so I MUST be gay.

I HAVE BIG BOOBS, so I MUST be a bunny.

I'm COLOMBIAN, so I MUST be a drug dealer.

I WEAR WHAT I WANT, so I MUST be a poser.

I'm RUSSIAN, so I MUST be cool.

I'm GERMAN, so I MUST be a Nazi.

I hang out with GAYS, so I MUST be GAY TOO

I'm BRAZILIAN, so I MUST have a BIG BUTT.

I'm PUERTO RICAN, so I MUST look good and be conceited.

I'm SALVADORIAN, so I MUST be in MS 13.

I'm POLISH, so I MUST be greedy.

I'm HAWAIIAN, so I MUST be lazy.

I'm a STONER, so I MUST be going in the wrong direction.

I'm a VIRGIN, so I MUST be a prude.

I'm a FEMALE GAMER, so I MUST be ugly or crazy.

I'm BLACK, so I MUST love watermelon and fried chicken.

I'm BI, so I MUST think every person I see is hot.

I'm ASIAN, so I MUST have a small penis.

I'm a GUY CHEERLEADER, so I MUST be gay.

I'm SKINNY, so I MUST be anorexic.

I'm PREP, so I MUST be rich.

I don't FLIRT WITH GUYS AT SCHOOL ao I MUST be gay.

I dont like the SUN so I MUST be albino.

I have a lot of FRIENDS, so I MUST love to drink and party.

I wear tight PANTS and I'm a guy, so I MUST be emo.

I wear BOY'S CLOTHES so I MUST be a lesbian.

I'm POSTING THIS so I MUST be a groupie.

My favourite bands are: Marilyn Manson, Korn, Slipknot, Soulfly, Static X, Cradle of Filth, DevilDriver, Coal Chamber, Kittie, Dimmu Borgir, Rob/White Zombie, Nirvana, Disturbed and Alanis Morrisette and more...(I have over three hundred c.d.'s so I am not even going to start to list all the bands in my catalogue)

My Favourite music genres are: Grunge, Nu Metal, Black Metal, Death Metal, Grindcore, Thrash Metal, Doom Metal, Goth Metal, Alternative Metal, Rap Metal, Hard Rock, Techno, Darkwave, Ambience, Old school rap, Alternative Pop, 70's and 80's pop and War Metal

My favourite movies are: Lord of The Rings trilogy, Matrix Trilogy, Star Wars, Home Room, Bair Witch 1 and 2, The Ring, The Grudge 1 and 2, Fear and Loathing in Las Vegas, The Bourne Movies, Entrapment and Resident Evil 1 and 2

My favourite actors are: Arnold Scwarzenegger, Michelle Rodriguez, Milla Jovavich, Sean Connery, Keanu Reaves, Nicole Kidman, Hugh Jackman, Anne Hathway, Christopher Lee, Mark Wahlburg, John Travolta, Keira Knightley, Johnny Depp, Jim Carrey, Asia Argento, Vin Diesel, Hillary Duff and Linsday Lohan

My favurite alcohlic beverages are: Absinthe, Vodka, Tequila, Guinness, Beer, Bourban, Scotch, Rum, Jagermeister, Chambul and Champaigne

The things that inspire me: Music, Movies, Sayings, News Reports, Love, Conversations, situations I am involved in good or bad and above all hate